Till the day i die (Andy bvb fanfic ) ~completed

The news

authors note~ just wanna say i didnt mean for it to be slightly like TFIOS it isnt rly only the cancer bit but i only realised that after i wrote loads and i cba to change it also this is set when Andy was about 19 and had long hair (idk why i just felt like it) although im calling him biersack not sixx

I was sat in the room of sickness and death,I hated the doctors surgery. i felt sick and nervous as i was sat on one tattered green seat. My black skinny jeans where sticking to my skin even more today with sweat, my PTV band shirt was skicking to my back and my messy long black hair was falling in front of my face as i stared at the floor. My hands where also sweaty as fuck but that didnt stop me holding on to my mums hand, even if i was a bit to old for it.

I looked up at mum and squeezed out a rare smile. She smiled back but i could tell she nervous.

"everything is going to be okay sweetie...i promise" she whispered but she didn't sound sure.

"okay" i croaked as my throat had gone dry with nerves.

It felt like we had been sat in the room of death for a million years when the doctor fianlly called my name. "Raven Williams please" Mum gave me a reassuring look. I pulled myself up but fell straight down again back into my chair, my legs had gone numb. A small tear escaped my eye as mum helped me up again. Everyone was staring.

We entered the small white room with the doctor and sat down on two chairs in front of the doctor and his desk. I looked at him and he looked worried. shit this cant be good i thought to myself and he handed a piece of blue and white paper. It had all my personal details on it.

Name: Raven Williams

Age: 18

i skipped the rest, i remember filling it out last time i was here.My eyes skimmed down to the bottom of the paper. What i saw changed my life forever.

"Raven im so sorry" the doctor shook his head "i'll give u and your mother time to process the information, i shall be back shortly to discuss your future" the doctor exited the room.

"Raven?" mums voice shook and she took the paper from my hand, leaving me shell shocked and staring at the floor in disbelief.

Mum gasped as she read the information and her hand shot over mouth before breaking down in tears.

I didn't. I still couldn't believe this was real.

Why me. Why now, when i have my whole life ahead of me.

Lung cancer..

Fucking lung cancer.

Thats when it finally hit me and i cried. I felt my mothers arm around me and i cried into her chest.

"it's not fair mum!" i sobbed

"i know darling, i know. "

We sat there crying for about 5 minuets when the doctor walked back in.

"Mrs Williams," he said to my mum, though she isnt married. "i am truly sorry for you , for both of you especially Raven to have to hear this news."

"But surly doctor, it can be treated cant it, she will live" i my mum said through tears.

please say yes please say yes!

He shook "We don't know Mrs Williams, maybe but maybe not" his and mum cried even harder.

"how..urm how long do i have left" i asked holding back tears, i didnt want to appear weak.

" oh plenty of time Raven, up to 2 maybe 3 years if we cant make you better, but as there is no treatment that we know of  to help you because the cancer is secondary, it's set in your lungs for good, but we will try many treatments but they arent granted to work you might die, you need to prepare yourself for that, but the doctors will be able to inplant a small oxygen tank inside you and chemo you will be offered will keep you alive till then, so you can have a few special years left with you mother."

hearing 'i might die' killed me inside. And i joined my mother in shedding tears like a waterfall.

Then next few months where going to be hard, id be getting weekly chemo and have to ajust my life to living with tubes coming out my nose. Im glad they werent giving me a tank like they used to give to lung cancer patients because now i only had 3 years left i have a few things on a bucket lkst i cant wait to tick of.

authors note ~ i know an oxygen tank in side her lungs isnt real but im trying not to make this like TFIOS aha.