We are better than this...(Amephil book 2)

i don't deserve you...

Spain pov:

I look back at Philip with a worried look realizing he was crying.

Maybe this song really made him think about something emotional.

He touched his right cheek like he didn't notice he was shedding a tear "oh..." he only uttered, a little surprised as well, he immediately wipped it off like he was ashamed to admit he cried.

"Sorry about that Spain" he sniffs softly.
Still, there are tears streaming down slowly like it won't stop anytime soon.

"No. don't apologize," I reassure him trying to make him to feel at least some sort of comfort.
"I'm just surprised that you cried, no need to feel ashamed because of that," I reminded softly looking at him worriedly.

He was only quiet, seeing tears slowly stop streaming as he was looking down at the ground like he didn't want me to see him like this.

My jaw clench a little.

"You know you can tell me if there's something wrong," I reminded trying to pursue the Pinoy but he shook his head and smiled weakly at me "I'm fine," he rejected simple and low but noticing his tone quivers a little.

it made me frown feeling sadness overwhelm me a little just seeing my life long friend almost break down in front of me...

its been such a decade seeing philip this depressed for a long time...

and just seeing him like this is surprising his always the happiest and joyful ones in the world.

i felt myself gulped nervously...

i was never good at being the one who talks to people about there problems and gives good advice but it won't hurt to try...

"look amor I'm never good at trying to be the emotional rope here but its really obvious your not fine," i said not trying to sound sarcastic and bombastic.

philip chuckled lowly but he sounds lighter "I'm fine kuya Spain the song just made me teary thats all" he smiled softly at me but...

i felt myself sigh in defeat...

"Okay, amor but if you really have problems..." i grabbed my guitar looking at philip with a soft smile.

"tell me, Vale?"(okay?) i said looking back at him before leaving the balcony.

when i got back inside, i heard loud music played.
i carefully slide over to the countries who are dancing and drinking.
but my eye caught ame who is talking to new Zealand his brother.

i went forward to them with a grin.
"hey~" ame was startled while new Zealand grin at America's reaction
"You countries are so jumpy right now," i said remembering Philip's startled reaction ame only glared at me but it turned into a friendly smile "you know there's something called tapping on the shoulder," he said like its obvious.

i shrugged "Nah its amusing seeing people surprise," i said with a smug smirk
ame only rolled his eyes "so are you enjoying the party?" he asked sipping on his cup
"fun actually seeing my old amigos are delightful," i said.

i look back a new Zealand with an amused expression "hello Zea been a long time since i saw you" new Zealand only rolled his eyes but yet he had a smile stamp on his face "don't amuse me with your shit dude you still owe me a dollar after i beat you in netball" he chuckled.

i only huffed "how would i know that what I'm doing is foul play?" he shrugged "listening to the rules when the referee speaks" he rolled his eyes sarcastically but yet i can't help but smile.