Il Mio Amore

Chapter 10

I don't regret supporting the Cullens, nemmeno un po', not even a bit. This is the right thing to do, I believe my worry stems from what i miei padri, my fathers, will do to them for me being involved.

"Let us worry about that." Edward suddenly said.

"You know, I try to respect la tua privacy but you don't help." I complained.

"Sorry, I can't help it." he said.

"Capisco, I understand, it is difficult for me too at times." I told him.

"You know, it doesn't bother anyone if you stay. We appreciate everything that you're doing for us and for Jasper."

"Ah, hai sentito che."

"What?"

"You expect me to believe that you don't know italiano?" I asked.

"I know some, it's not really a language that I paid much attention to."

"I said, you heard that."

"Yes and no, no one really heard the conversation but . . ."

"You heard his pensieri, his thoughts."

"I . . . yeah, I did."

"That is a really bad habit." I scolded.

"I can't help it, can you?"

"I drown it out with nonsense. Music, books, it doesn't really work all of the time but the few that it does I take advantage of."

"You make him happy." he suddenly said.

"He makes me happy, very happy. More than I thought I had a right to be."

"Why is that?"

"Lo sai già, you already know." I replied.

"Tell me." he insisted.

"Being the daughter of those men, it put me on the lista nera, the blacklist, of many. I am a pariah in my own circles, I don't have many friends. With Alec and the tracker following me everywhere, no man ever gets too close." I told him.

"Who they are and what they do doesn't reflect on you. You work hard to prove that you're nothing like them." he argued.

"You and this group of people are the only ones who've seen it because no one gets close enough. Most keep their distance once they find out who I am and they're smarter for it."

"We're smart people, we just gave you a chance." Emmett said.

"I don't see you being accused of being smart." I replied.

"You see, you fit into the family already." he countered, making me smile.

Christmas came and passed, the snow falling quickly and sticking. I was still worried but determined to see this through. Being here, with these people, with this man, I've felt more comfortable in the past days and weeks than I have in the past decades. Once I got over the aversion of being surrounded by people, that is.

I sat in his room and drew pictures while he read his history books over and over again. I colored with Renesmee, told her stories and pictures while he sat close by and listened. Renesmee and I always sit on the floor, it's a habit of mine when I get comfortable somewhere. Sometimes he would come and sit behind us, wrapping his arms around me while I spoke to his niece. I will always be grateful for this family.

They gave me a family, friends and a lover, (no we have not slept together yet). They gave me a man to love who loves me, even knowing where and what I come from. Those are things that I will never take for granted. So when we went to the field to wait for them, I was the first to go and volunteer to be frontline.