Words That Were Never Said {HunterxHunter AU}

Pakunoda Contemplates Her Life Decisions

Gon blinked. He was in his bed in his and Pakunoda's flat. An opened box, the one Pakunoda gave him yesterday, laid on its side on the bed in front of him.

Gon attempted to recall back what happened a few seconds ago - it was as if he had just awaken from a vivid dream, and was trying to recall the dream itself. So close, yet out of reach.

As soon as he tried, a rush of memories consumed him.

It was as if his life was being played out in front of his eyes at a hundred times its speed, though he still somehow managed to absorb all of those information. Leaving Aunt Mito's house, the Hunter Exam, the Zoldyck estate, Heaven's Arena, the Phantom Troupe, and...

Killua.

"Oh, no," Gon muttered, horror dawning on his face. "I'm so stupid!"

He scrambled up from his bed, hurriedly changing into a white tank top and green shorts, gelling his mess of a hair and brushing his teeth all at once. The entire scene in the room was so full of activity that it was like a hurricane was taking place. Clothes, accessories, water droplets, a comb and somehow a stray plushie were being flung throughout the room as Gon rushed to prepare himself.

"What's with all the noise?" Pakunoda had came personally to inspect the cacophony coming from Gon's room, only to be nearly smacked in the face by a plushie. "Gon Freecss! What is the meaning of this? It's eight in the morning!"

"Sorry, Paku, can't talk now!"

A flash of green could be constantly seen darting around here and there. Rolling her eyes, Pakunoda closed back the door to let Gon settle with whatever he was doing.

Just when she closed it though, the door was slammed open and she was pulled into an embrace from behind.

Pakunoda chuckled amusingly. "Why with the sudden hug?"

"Thank you," Gon muttered, then released Pakunoda, so that she could face him. "For everything. I remember now. Everything."

Pakunoda raised an eyebrow. "Everything?"

"Everything," Gon confirmed.

"I'm bewildered why you aren't killing me on the spot as we speak."

Gon laughed. "Why would I? You took care of me, Paku. Like I promised last night! No matter what happens, I'll still love you as a mother."

Pakunoda allowed herself a smile at that. She wiped the corner of her eyes and sniffed.

"Paku?" Gon asked, worry filling his voice. "Why are you crying? Do you need some-"

"No, I'm fine, Gon," Paku chortled. "I'm just...touched."

"Oh," Gon said sheepishly. "I'm...sorry?"

Pakunoda shook her head. "You don't need to apologise for that, Gon."

"Then what should I do?" Gon pouted.

"What were you about to do?" Pakunoda asked, trying to keep her hiccoughing to a minimum. Honestly, it was just embarrassing to tear up in front of Gon, but she just couldn't hold it in. She should have at least the decency to keep the crying to the minimum.

"I was about to go to Killua's!" Gon said excitedly, running on the spot like he was about to dash off any moment. Which considering the situation, was very likely to happen. "I think I figured out why he was so closed up now!"

And who his best friend is, if I'm not mistaken. But he did not say that aloud.

"Do you want my help getting to him?" Pakunoda offered. "I can at least drive you over-"

"It's OK," Gon said immediately. "I don't think Killua will like it if you came along. I don't even think if he wants to see me. But I gotta try!"

"Alright, then," Pakunoda said. "Stay safe, then."

"I will!"

With that, Gon disappeared, leaving nothing behind but a trial of dust in his wake. Pakunoda smiled and looked up to the ceiling, as if she could see the sky beyond.

"I just hope I did the right thing," Pakunoda sighed.