In the centre of the storm

I NEED TO SING!

" I think you should try doing a different genre... ballads and sad soulful songs goes well with your voice, try making a song like that.. the music you've sent aren't good enough.."

Closing the email I sigh
" Denied again ahhhh~" banging my fist against the table in frustration.
" I don't want to sing sad songs anymore it's fake and not me, why do they keep pushing an image on me!" I say out loud but it's not the first time I've said something like this and it's not the first time they have denied my songs.

Seungyoun shrugs putting down his phone.
" because your not in a girl group so doing a music genre that's isn't yet popular to sale massively of course they won't support it.. everything means money to them, they don't care about taste in music, talent or artists. Whatever can get them more money they will go for.. it's the stupid truth.." he says patting me on my shoulder. " It will be alright we will make some music that they will have to take because it will be to good!"  Trying to make me smile.

"Maybe I should go live and be like  I NEED TO SING, I'M A SINGER, I NEED AN ALBUM!!" I say laughing even though the thought is tempting I get back to my music and slowly get absorbed with a fighting sprite to make better music...

Weeks turned to months but still songs have been made and denied.. The company weren't listening to what I wanted to do and honestly I've had enough of it.

I was heading to ASC after getting my hair and makeup done and received another email saying the same stuff I've heard for the last 2 years.

I was extremely angry though I tried my hardest not to let it show because I was with Jae and Kevin they will only worry... I blindly went through rehearsals not really paying attention until we finally aired.

"LIVE IN 1~2~3!"

"Wooh!" Kevin says " come on guys we're meant to do it together!"
Smiling I say " okay in 123~"
Both Kevin and Jae awkwardly dance
"Hey!" The both say.
Pushing in front I introduce myself "Hey Guys it's your girl Jamie!"

Following the script we all introduce ourselves in our own unique ways
"Jae since you weren't here for our first episode on the new year we didn't get to say own New Year resolution. So Jae what's your New Year resolution?"
Kevin saying looking towards Jae. But because it's Jae he couldn't think of anything so he passes the question back to Kevin.
"Me I want to release more mus~"

And I explode...

"JYP!!"

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Popping in with a new chapter.. honestly I think I was just typing one of the most iconic moments my Queen did and just typed it in my point of view..

I'm excited for when she drops her new music which is soon!!

P.s did you'll watch the radio with Hayi and Suhyun it was soo adorable and funny even though I don't understand a thing >.<

Hope you liked this random chap
Thank you Xx