secrets to tell... ♥

aunt allivea and catts past.

aunt allivea was her name, and making me fat was her game. JUST KIDDING. ahh humour, i got it back finally

this week has been terrible. from josie to my family. im finally settling down with a real cooked meal for onse. and boy was i happy..

now me and harry were in our room, unpacking? i guess we were staying for a while. our room was big and fancy, and filled with shinny things like, a decorative platter, or anything silver.

i was in one of those moods where everything made me laugh.

and it really made me miss caitlyn, badly

so i decided, eh what the fuck. ima skype her.

...ring

...ring

...ring

"hello?"

"RAAAAAWWWWRRRR" i said i giggled, and then let out a full laugh. it felt good, this feeling? like ive been lifted.

"i missed you too julia.. haha hows londin, or cheshire....orr....?" she said confused.

"-HOLMES CHAPEL,CALM YOUR TITS WOMEN, YOU WERE CLOSE....whao wait...." i said i was fixing my postion on the bed, harry had went downstairs to use the bathroom.. or the loo?

"umm,  julia my tits are calm, i guess your in a good mood eh..?"  haha i think shes tired, besides its 12 pm here so its like 6 am there.. ooopss.

"yeah i am, i met my dad....he's a total douchioioioioo" i said looking down.. i shouldnt of said that.

i should be thankful i had both parents.

yep.

when me and caitlyn were little around about five years of age, we were at our neighbors and she was waiting for her dad to come home.

flashback

"hey,sam can we pretty pretty please do your makeup? "caitlyn said to sam, we all knew she had a little kid crush on him

"yeah please? PWEAAAAASSSEEE" i said batting my lashes

"guys i hope my daddy is okay, its 5;30 and hes suposd to be hewe by now.." she triailed off

"im sure hes fine sissy.." i said hugging her tightly

"i cant bweathe....cwushing my wibs" she said in a hushed tone

"sowwy didnt mean to huit youwr bones" i said smiing.

there was a knock at the door, and there were two officers, a girl and a boy

they were talking to sams mommy.

"cool! a police officer!!" sams screeched sending me and caitlyns hands over eachothers ears.

caitlyn scrunchhed up her nose, and im sure i did too.

then my mommy was at the front door, i had to come home.

i hugged caitlyn.

"i pwomise you.....evewything will be alwight? i wove you catt!" i said ias i walked out the door.

i sure hoped everything wass alright, if not i had just broken a promise. but forever will it be safe.

halfway home my mommy started crying.

"mommy whats wong?" i asked.

"everythings fine, lets go back to teddies house okay?" she said. teddy was my step daddy. i didnt know where my daddy was.

"is catts daddy alwigth?" i asked, that made her cry even more.

"baby everything will be alright okay? caitlyns dad is hurt, he is terribly hurt."

"oh..... but evewything will be fine wight?" i asked 

i felt hurt. like a lost a father of my own. i didnt know what to do.

*a few hours*

"mo-m-mmy.... i-i-i c-ca-can-cant ba-ba-breeeaatth!!" i said, my eyes were swoillen. i had been crying.

caitlyns dad.

he was hurt.

he wouldnt be back

all my mommy told me is that. a bad person yelled at him. and he died. but my mommy is silly. that isnt how people die.

teddy told me the real reason..

"honey... he was at the bank... and he was getting some money for christmas presents, and he was shot." he told me not to tell my mommy.

i couldnt imagine how she felt. now she had to live with her mom. but she still lived close... i hope. but i know that forever, will her dad look after from heaven. i always promised her that hed be alright.

present day 

as i thought about it i felt stupid for taking it for granted, having a dad this whole time, i saw caitlyn look down.

"im sorry.." i whispered

"for what?" she asked, i didnt know she heard me

"for taking it for granted.." i said

i didnt know whether to look her in the eyes or not. i know she remembers it perfectly.

the promise even.

the promise...

"you know how promised you that very day, telling you he'd be alright?"

"yeah...." she sniffled. i feel bad, shes started to cry.

"dont cry! there may be reasons, he needed to go, i know he looks down  on you everyday.hes proud of your acheivements! i promised you and im keeping it. like ed sheeran says, maybe they had better plans for him up there, and maybe they needed him up there. you will see him again someday. i know you will. i love you caitlyn your my sister.. dont forget that. and you know what..?" i asked

"what..?" she said looking up.. she was spilling now. her face was red from blushing and crying.

"i dont know why i didnt bring you with me catt,i cant do this without you, i cant make up inside jokes about my twins with harry, hell forget. " i said i trailed off looking at her, she started laughing.

"what are you saying jey..?" she said giving one of those quizical looks.

"im saying i want you out here tomorrow by 10 am uk time, you catching my drift??" i said,  she was smilinng like a cheshhire cat, while im cheshire ba dum tsss..? no..? yeah bad pun...

"yes! my mom wont care, shes never here anyways, but i dont have money.. " she said looking away

"ill fly you out here, harry, for some reason, already has a private jet...?" i said.

her faced drop.

"theyre not even famous yet?!" she said.

yeah thats what i thought.....

"yep, now ill just have to tell harry...."

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awe.... shucks cute little chapter about catts life. (not in any way is this real, caitlyn in real life still lives with our father-yes our father.... )