A small warning, there will be self harm in this chapter, so...if you're uncomfortable with it, don't read the parts with +++ before it
Namjoon felt fake.
Throughout the day, when helping his new friends with simple tasks; like helping Yoongi with writing or spelling, he just couldn't get rid of the fake feeling he had, and whenever Seokjin cooed and said he was cute when he focused, the fake feeling got so much worse.
At lunch, he excused himself politely, and told Taehyung to wait with them, before he walked to the bathroom.
When he arrived in the bathroom, he walekd to the sink and splashed his face with water a few times, looking up into the mirror, staring into his own eyes.
He poked his cheek, and frowned slightly.
He hated the way he looked.
He's always been told that he was ugly, by his own parents and by the men who claimed to love him...
He couldn't help but believe them.
Slowly, he walked into a stall, and locked it behind him, taking a small razor out of his pocket.
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Namjoon let the razor softly glide along his arm, closing his eyes as he felt the familiar burning sensation.
The reason he had been staring at his wrist earlier was because he used to have visible scars there, but they had faded.
Now?
He was placing the scars back where they had been before, staring at the scars with a blank expression.
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The blood dripped down his arm, and he hissed in pain when he moved, causing air to hit the wound.
He walked out of the stall and washed the razor, washing his scars at the same time.
He had left two, both neatly placed where his old ones had been, and he shoved the razor back into his pocket, tugging his hoodie from around his waist and pulling it over his head, hiding his scars.
He smiled through his pain as he walked back to the table.
"Hey, you weren't wearing that hoodie before."Jimin blinked. "Hyung what happened?"
"Ah, I got water on my shirt Jimin."Namjoon made it up on the spot, but Hoseok shrugged.
"That's happened to me a few times, it's understandable."
Namjoon thought he had gotten away with it.
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FanfictionKim Namjoon has been told all his life that he is ugly. By his parents. By his old friends. By his many, many exes. By his classmates. By everyone. When he moves to a new school, people can't seem to stop staring, and he assumes it's because he's u...
