How to survive school

School

Hi guys I haven't updated this in forever and I'm sorry about that, I honestly don't know if any of my advice is helpful or not. If it is then I hope it's working out for you if it's not I'm sorry, I have a lot of recent drama that's pointless and avoidable in my life right now so I'm trying to get through that. I really hope this helped you guys I know what this pressure can do to you and I'm here, some of my friends have recently taken up cutting and that really put a dent in our friend ship. To those of you who don't know me I cut for a long time, I just wasn't happy with my life, my parents were always fighting or causing some kind of drama I didn't want, school was like a boulder I couldn't let go of and then my biological father was stirring up drama. I almost gave up I'm not going to lie and I hate myself for it, I almost gave up I was going to take the easy way out, I got so caught up in it because I didn't care, I just couldn't feel anything anymore, I just didn't care. The pain made me feel alive, human, real, it was the key that actually made me feel like I was here.

I didn't even see that my best friend was there and she knew she didn't tell me but she knew, she confronted me a few months before school ended and she told me to flush them. I didn't know what she was talking about until she said, "The blades, the razors flush them out," she helped me through it. If you ever feel lonely know that you are never truly alone you just aren't looking hard enough for the person. My school told her to withdraw shortly after and I was so pist at my teacher I was snarky and rude anything I could do to get back at him I did. But now looking back at all of it, it was pointless, I'm over it and if your cutting or know someone who is speak up, even if try don't want to tell their parents help them through it, they will thank you later. All of the cutting I did back then it's useless now it's just a bunch of barely noticeable white verticals lines on my forearms. My parents still don't know about it and honestly it hurts that they didn't care enough to notice the blood stained jackets I covered up with, but I got through it and so can you, look pat the bad in life. With every darkness there is always light, with all the bad there is always good, you are never to lost to find your way back, your life is better and more important then whatever it is you are cutting about, and this might not even be cutting its self harm in general. I hated life so much that even drowning it out with music wasn't enough, to all those kids who do it for attention fuck you, you don't even know how much you are hurting other people. Life is so much more than the bad, with every hill there is the down, and with every bump there is smooth. Remember I'm here to talk and even if your to embarrassed remember you are not alone, you never are even if you feel alone you aren't, your more than the blade, you are better than that razor, I want you get whatever you used to self harm and go in your bathroom/go to your garbage and flush/throw it away right now. It gets better, it might not seem like it now but it does, when life pushes you down hit it back just as hard, bring it to your level, because sometimes life does suck, but it gets better. I realize I wrote all this advice three years ago in sixth grade so it was childish and poorly written as is most of the things I wrote in sixth grade but this, what I wrote down right now this isn't childish, I didn't tell you this for attention, I don't want your comments telling me to feel better, and I didn't want you to feel bad for me I told you this so you know your not alone, there are people going through the same thing.

Bai loves! 🐳