WARNING~ Sad Chapter
Austin and I were sitting on the couch watching a movie. The boys had went home to their girlfriends for the night, Austin and I have lived together for a few years now after we got engaged last month. Our lives were just beginning. "Babe, I'm gonna go to the store to pick up some things we're gonna need, I'll be back a little later" I really didn't want him to go, I never liked him driving out in the evening time because my father had died in a car accident at night time when I was little. A drunk driver ran a red light and collided with my fathers car.
"Babe you know I don't like you going out this late at night, you can go in the morning" I tried to persuade him, giving him my best puppy eyes. Austin gave me a pitiful and sympathetic look. "Baby I promise I won't be gone too long, I'll come right back to you I promise" He gave me a kiss on the head. I reluctantly agreed. "Please be careful" Austin gave me a little smile as he grabbed his keys from the table, "I always am" and with that he walked out the door.
The store was only about 10 minutes away from our house, so I didn't expect him to be gone no more than maybe an hour. So I took a deep breath and turned off the movie we had been watching and watched some Animal Planet, I loved watching the cute animals and they always seemed to distract me. I was maybe 5 minutes into the show when my phone went off, my heart started racing, I read the text from Austin 'Just letting you know I'm alright babe :)" I smiled as I sent him a quick reply 'Thank you baby. Come home safe. Love you!' He always seemed to make me smile. He sent me an 'I love you too' and I put my phone down and continued watching my show.
About another hour passed and I was extremely worried. I had sent him multiple text messages and phone calls with no answer. I called all the boys and they said they hadn't heard from him since this morning. I was crying and panicking. What if something happened to him? I called Brandon and asked him to come over for a bit, he was my best friend and he always seemed to calm me down in these situations. He was over within 5 minutes. "Y/N, are you alright?" He engulfed me in a tight hug while I cried in his shoulder. My mind was flooded with worry and fear that something horrible has happened to Austin. Brandon and I sat on the couch as he was trying to console me that Austin was probably just stuck in traffic. "Well then why hasn't he returned my phone calls or text messages??? He should've at least replied to me and let me know he's OK!"
Brandon assured me that his phone might have died. I just wasn't buying it at all. Just then my phone rang. I picked it up so quickly I didn't even look at the caller I.D. "Hello, is this Y/N?" I had a puzzled look on my face, "Y-yes Why?" My heart was racing and beating out of my chest. "There has been an accident with Austin Porter. You need to come to the hospital right away." My face went pale white. Brandon was looking at me with a puzzled look on his face. "I-is he OK? What happened is he OK!!??" "Ma'am, the doctors will explain everything once you get here, just come quick" And with that she hung up. I jumped off the couch and grabbed my keys. "What's going on Y/N?!" Brandon was concerned. "Austin's been in an accident! Call the boys and get in the car!"
We both drove all the way to the hospital and the boys met us there. All the boys were asking what had happened and where Austin was and if he was OK. I was a hot mess I was crying and shaking, I just wanted to see my fiance. The doctor came around the corner. "Are you all here for Austin Porter?" My voice was so shaky I didn't feel like I could even speak. "We are all here for him, is he OK?" Edwin spoke up for us all. The doctor had a certain look on his face that I didn't like. It made me so much more concerned. "Austin was in a terrible accident, he was hit by a DUI driver who ran a stop sign. The driver hit him head on." My face was pale white and I felt like my whole world stopped.
"What condition is he in?" Nick's voice was shaky. The doctor let out a sigh, he couldn't look anybody in the eyes. "When the driver hit him, his hit his head off of the steering wheel, he has a serious concussion and a fractured skull. Multiple rib fractures and a broken neck. Right now he has internal bleeding and he is in a coma." My world stopped. I felt like I was going to pass out. Brandon was rubbing my back trying his best to console me just a little bit, but I could tell he was extremely upset as well. It took everything I had left in me to speak up. "I-is he going to make it?" My voice was small and weak, I was surprised the doctor could even hear me.
The doctor looked at me with a look of sympathy. "His chanced as of right now are small. He has to have a breathing tube because he is not able to breathe on his own. You may see him now" I practically ran down the hallway to his room. I almost had another break down once I saw Austin. He was laying there with a cast on his leg and neck, his head all wrapped up in bandages, a breathing tube down his throat and bruises and cuts littering his lifeless body. I froze. I felt like I couldn't move, my legs were like jello. I slowly walked over to his bedside and sat down in a chair next to him. I grabbed his cold hand in my own and squeezed it. "Austin..I-I know you probably can't hear me but..please push through for me" My voice cracked as tears ran down my face and hit the white sheets on his bed
The boys sat there with me all night long, hoping and praying that Austin would push through and make it through this. I couldn't sleep that night. I wouldn't eat or drink anything, no matter how much the boys begged me to. I just sat in that chair next to Austin and never moved but to go to the bathroom right across the hall. I sat there for days staring at his lifeless pale body, listening to the machines he was hooked up to.
It was about 10PM and the boys had fallen asleep on the other chairs in the room, I was still awake. Just then I heard one of worst sounds I've ever heard in my life. I snapped my head to the side and looked at his heart rate on the screen, it was a flat line. My eyes went wide and I screamed for the doctors. The boys instantly woke up and started panicking as about 5 doctors flooding in the room, ushering us out of their way. I was hysterical, repeatedly screaming "SAVE HIM PLEASE SAVE HIM" We watched them pull out machines and try to restart his heart and get it beating again.
After about 5 times trying to restart his heart, they stopped. "Time of death, 10:10 PM" I screamed and ran back in his room to his side. I was hysterically crying "AUSTIN WAKE UP PLEASE COME BACK TO ME YOU CAN'T DIE!" My tears were falling on his body as I hugged him. The boys were right by my side, they were all crying and hugging each other. The doctors left the room and told us to take as much time as we needed. I never wanted to leave his side. I was in denial. I couldn't believe that my fiance was dead. Killed by a DUI driver, the same way my father had years ago.
We went home that night after hours of just sitting in the hospital room crying and mourning. We all went home to our houses, the boys went home to their girlfriends and told them the news of Austin's passing. Brandon had offered if I wanted to stay with him, I denied. I wanted to be alone. I went home, it was dead silence in our once shared home. I could almost hear his voice saying "How was work babe". I could hear his laugh down the hall in our shared bedroom. I could almost see his face again, his smiling, beaming face. I cried the rest of the night, and for days after that.
His funeral was a week after his passing. All of his friends and family were there, the boys were there. His mother was completely shattered, along with his brothers. The boys sang Gone 2 Long at his funeral reception. They could barely sing it without their voices cracking. After the funeral I sat at his gravestone for awhile. I prayed and cried and talked to him, as if he was right there in front of me. I looked up at the bright blue sky as tears ran down my face once again.
"Baby, I know you're listening to me, living my life without you here is going to be incredibly hard for me, But I know you are always watching over me. I Love you, Austin Dale Porter." I looked down at my engagement ring and gave it a kiss as I walked away, on my way back home. Living my life from here wasn't going to be easy, but I have an angel watching over me, always. I was never going to love anybody else but my fallen angel.
A/N- I know this one is sad, but I hope you enjoyed :) :'(
