,,(Not) True character" || CountryHumans ||

||1|| ,,Hello..."

Hello, maybe you know me or not, but I'm Poland. Well, you know... a normal country like any other.... except maybe one... I do not meet other countries (except Czech Republic, Slovakia and Hungary). 

Because of the "horrible" times I've been through, I've forgotten who I really am... I don't remember the old "me" anymore... My friends and my brother are trying to remind me, but they're not succeeding... They do not succeed, because I have forgotten all these "feelings" and I can't play on emotions like I used to. I guess I will soon forget about everything; about the present, about my family (Slavic countries (But he forgot about them!) + brother Hungary + sister Lithuania), about my friends, about emotions........ I'm afraid of all this....

I guess the Czech Republic figured out and he informed Slovakia and Hungary of this... How did I find out? Because lately they write to me more and more often, they call me and even visit me. At first it didn't bother me, but after some time it started to annoy me a little. You could always see on their faces that they were worried about me. 

I don't even know what to call it, so let's just say it's "disease"... Thanks to this something I forgot about all countries, what they liked, what they hated, what hobbies they had, what they ate most often, about relations between other countries... I am glad that I have not forgotten about my friends and my beloved brother, but knowing this "something" I will surely forget about them as with other countries... And that's what I'm most afraid of... If that happens, I'll never go back to my old "me" again... A few days ago Hungary approached Switzerland (I don't even know who he is) about such information about this "disease"... He told me sadly, that if I ever forget about them, then I never again feel whatever before these horrible times, never change and forever I am going to be like now.... All I know is that the "disease" will never disappear from my life again, although I already know that I am half-dead with everyone and myself...

That's the way life is, you have the good and the horrible times... All I have to do is wait for the next day, week, month or even a few years to find out about my future life.... Even though my life is already half dead, there's no point in waiting too long.... One day I wanted to kill myself, but the Czech Republic, Slovakia and Hungary are my closest countries and they will always support me in everything... So I have a "yet" reason to live....