most kids my age had a easy time making friends. (by this i'm still referring to around 6ish.) i've always been semi-socially awkward and not the best at speaking. i would always feel the blood rush to my cheeks and immediately feel bashful for even opening my mouth and making an opportunity to say some thing dumb in the first place. i was a good kid though. just very introverted and up until this point i mostly have still been a good kid, excluding the "rebellious teenager" phase.
aside from this are never-ending family issues. this is not to say i don't have a great, loving family, it's simply no one is perfect and everyone has a fair share of dirty clothes under the bed. that's all. for example, i have an extremely weird anxiety when i smell cigarette smoke. why? that's something too personal to discuss and i'm sorry i'm even adding this in here, and i swear it's not to make your curiosity heighten. it's just so you understand that anxieties or fears from the past will come naturally and sometimes there's nothing we can do about it but cope. i've had to observe myself a lot in starting this book. mostly because i had a lot of traumatic events as a young child that i somehow disassociated with. which can be very normal and more commom than you think. so now that you know some of my backstory, it's time for you to know the older but still young up-to-date version of myself.
hello,
i am ariana...
to be continued...
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