Change of Plans - Grizzam

Chapter 10 - Realtalk

Sam

Sam quickly left the house and went over to Beccas, tears still running down his cheeks. He quickly wipes them away when Beccas Dad opens the door and walks upstairs to her room.

"Oh god, Sam what happened?" Becca quickly jumps up from her bed when she notices Sam and walks closer. Sam wants to start talking, but more tears started running down his cheeks and his voice cracks. He starts sobbing when Becca hugs him tightly and strokes his back.

It took Sam a while to calm down and he and Becca are sitting on her bed now, Sam hugging a pillow and with red eyes. "I...I can't really tell you because he is not out yet...but there was a guy. We made out a couple of times and kind of got friends with benefits..."

Becca listens attentively whilst Sam tells her the story "Oh god Sam...you deserve so much better than just being a 'fuck buddy'! There is plenty of other fish in the sea! And you deserve a rainbow fish who is out and who loves you and not just the sex with you!" Sam has to smile a little "Yeah...but I don't think rainbowfishes exist in West Ham...so I either be a fuck body or completely single...".

"Give me your phone!" Becca demands. Sam hands it over to her a little confused but when he sees what Becca is doing he has to laugh "No way! You're not signing me up on Grindr!". Becca grins "Yes I am! We're searching for a nice cute boy for you to date!". Sam facepalms himself a little but is also very excited. He never had the guts to sign up at one of these dating apps, but he always wanted to try.

It didn' take long until Sam and Becca were lying on her bed, writing with guys, laughing over profile pictures and swiping right and left to a fare-thee-well!

The next morning when Sam cheks his phone he sees that he has several messages. Some from Grindr but also from Grizz...

Grizz

Is everything all right? You seemed weird when you left...

Do you want to talk about it?

Did I do anything wrong?

Sam sights a little but decides to check his Grindr messages first. "Oh my god, Becca! Cute David from the all-boys sports school wants to go on a date with me?!?!...and we also got 3 more dickpics from some guys...". Sam tilts his head a little and Becca takes a look at his phone "Ewwww Sam! Stop looking that's so gross?!" Sam has to laugh and opens the chat with David. "What should I do? Should I really go out with him?!".

"Eh yes?!" Becca answers "He is super hot! And cute! And he is out so no more sneaking around!". Sam squeaks excitedly before answering "Man...I really have a thing for football players..."

Sam was really looking forward to this date...even though he has to think about Grizz a lot. He still has to talk to him...and this is not going to be easy that's for sure. But this Saturday Sam was very busy chatting with David. David is the same age as Sam, he lives in a town a few miles away from West Ham and goes to an all-boys school. He is the quarterback of his schools' football team, his favorite food is Pizza and his favorite animals are hedgehogs.

Sunday afternoon Sam finally decides to talk to Grizz. When he enters the jocks room, he sees Grizz sitting in front of his desk. Grizz turns around and crosses his arms in front of his chest when he sees Sam. "Why haven't you respond to any of my texts?" the jock says a little angry. Instead of answering, Sam sits down in front of Grizz on the bed and looks at him for a second. He notices that he has never ever seen Grizz angry before. But what's about to come is probably not making him any happier...

"We need to talk..." Sam says. Grizz leans back in his chair, raising an eyebrow "Shoot..." the jock says rattled. Sam closes his eyes for a second. He feels his eyes getting wet already but takes a deep breath and starts talking. "We can't go on like this...The tome with you was so beautiful and I enjoyed every bit of it. But it also made me realize that I am looking for more. I want a real relationship Grizz...". Grizz turned a little pale by Sam's words. "Sam I..I...". "You're not out and that's okay." Sam interrupts Grizz's stammering. "Grizz I...I like you. But I not only like you...I think I fell in love with you. I tried to tell you on Friday in the bathtub...but then you said that 'fuck buddy' thing...and it hurts. Every time you say these words it feels like my heart gets torn apart. For me, you're so much more than just...my source for Sex. And... I decided to start dating. The sneaking around was fun...but I really want a boyfriend who I can kiss in public and stuff... You're very special to me Grizz. But I need a change. I don't want to be one of these secret married gay dudes from the dinosaur age.."

Grizz's jaw drops down a little. He has to gather himself before he sits up a little and looks at Sam "So...that's it now?". Sam couldn't believe it. That is all he's going to say?!

"Oh..ohkay." Grizz stammers "Then...I wish you luck with your dating...hopefully you find someone better than me. Shouldn't be too hard huh?"

Sam bristles with anger and gets up. He just told Grizz that he fell in love with him and tried his best to explain everything and all he gets to hear is...THIS?! "Yeah. That's it. Thanks." Sam says snappish and leaves the room.