The object of my affection

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I have Calvin, Lloyd and Brad

Calvin is her father. Lloyd is the one I'm deeply in love with, while Brad is in love with me. I don't know and I just don't understand what happen for them to be apart of my life. Every day I wish they would all just leave my life in a matter of seconds. I feel that I need Calvin for the support as a real father. I need Lloyd because if he was to leave I would never find love again and I'll also be a cold-heartless motherfucker in this world. And as for Brad well, he holds me level. He makes me realize that I'm alive through the hurt and pain I've been through. Every night I fight myself to sleep thinking that I need all three of them, then I scream to myself "Fuck them bitches" and swallow that I'm not a women in the 60's. I'm hurt because Calvin made me this way. I'm bothered because Lloyd doesn't love me this way and at the same time dismayed at the fact that Brad does.