my little secret ; lana del rey

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"Guys i'm gonna go for a run" I tell everyone as we leave the restaurant we just had lunch in. "Ok honey we will all be at the pool" My mom says and kisses my forehead. I smile and say bye to everyone before I leave. I walk to the beach, which is pretty busy. It's around 2pm which is pretty much the busiest time of the day around here, plus the suns at its hottest. I begin running, avoiding people. At home I used to go for runs all the time to clear my head when I was really craving and or just when I was depressed. My councillor told me that it's a really good idea. Plus it also keeps me fit.

I run the whole length of the beach but end up having to stop because i've pulled my muscle in my shoulder. Slowly, I walk back to the hotel and head to my room. I'm pretty sure everyone will still be by the pool but I can't be bothered. I take my key out of my pocket and unlock the door, which by the way took about 6 attempts. One thing I realise I haven't done yet is unpack my suitcase. I take out all of the dresses and t shirts and place them on hangers so that they won't get creased. I fold up all my shorts and throw them in the nearest draw. Sighing, I lie down on my bed. It's so warm today. I take my shorts off and lie back down, leaving just my bikini on.

10 minutes pass and there's a knock on my door, it's probably just my sister or something. I open it and Lana is stood there smiling. She is wearing a navy blue long sleeved mini dress and some boots. "Hey I was just coming to ask if your coming with us all to the town later, we're gonna find somewhere to eat and go in the shops and shit" She asks me, stepping inside my room and sitting on my messy bed. "Yeah definitely, what time are we going?" I question her. "In around 2 hours, you've got plenty of time don't worry" She tells me and smiles again. I nod and pick out my dress for tonight, it's pretty plain just denim.

"How was your run?" Lana asks watching me pick out my outfit. I turn around to face the bed where she is sat, and place my dress on it. "It was good besides pulling my muscle in my shoulder" I tell her and laugh. I only just now realised that she's fully dressed and i'm stood here in my fucking bikini. "Let me massage you, i used to be good at it" She tells me and pats the bed next to her for me to sit. I can't turn down a free massage. I head over to her and sit down where she told me to. She crawls on the bed and positions herself behind me. "Which shoulder was it?" She asks me. "My left" I tell her.

She puts her hands on my shoulder and begins rubbing, which is actually quite painful but i'm just dealing with it. "Your really tight, relax" She tells me. I take a deep breath and try to relax myself but fail, making her laugh. "I'll help you" She says softly and places a small kiss on the back of my neck and another one on my shoulder. I feel her hands being placed on my waist as she continues kissing my back and my neck. I tense up even more causing pain in my shoulder, i'm pretty shy when it comes to all this stuff it makes me nervous.

Lana senses my nervousness and gets of the bed, making me question what she is doing. She appears in front of me and climbs onto my lap, straddling me. Her hands snake themselves around my neck as I awkwardly put mine on her waist. Slowly, she leaned in and places her lips on mine, pulling me closer to her. She begins moving her lips with mine in sync. Her tongue pushes into my mouth taking me be surprise, but i accept it. Her hand tangles itself in my hair as she kisses me harder. She pushes me down, making me lie on the bed with her on top of me, not breaking the kiss once. Her lips detach from mine but place themselves onto my neck. She kisses down my chest and then making my stomach, making me gasp. Her hand glides across my body until it reaches my breast which she squeezes. Lana moves down my body and kisses my inner thigh, a small moan escapes my mouth but i manage to hide it. "I wanna fuck you" She whispers looking down at me. I smile widely not really knowing what to say. But we are rudely interrupted by my phone ringing. "Ignore it" Lana says kissing down my neck. I ignore her and grab my phone seeing it's my dad. "It's my parents" I tell her and answer the phone. Lana sighs and gets off me, letting me sit up. "Hey honey i'm just letting you know we're leaving in an hour so make sure your ready" My dad says down the phone. "Ok dad i'll be ready" I reply. We say our goodbyes and end the call.

Lana tries to push me down on the bed again but I stop her. "I need to get ready" I tell her. She looks at me and sighs before moving away. I love winding her up. Brad arrives at my room wondering where Lana is. He walks in dressed in a white shirt which is tucked into some black skinny jeans. The top buttons of his shirt are undone revealing some of his tattoos. I'm not going to lie he's actually pretty good looking.

I have a quick shower and dry my hair. Lana comes over and straightens it for me whilst I do my makeup. "Babe i'm sorry about before" Brad says to Lana as she does my hair. "I don't want to talk about it" She replies, and looks up to the mirror meeting my eyes. "Babe please, the girl came on to me i didn't mean to" He says. Oh i'm guessing he cheated on her again, that's probably why she came to me. Lana spins my chair around and fixes up my makeup, i can tell by her face that she's annoyed. "Since your back to your old ways of cheating babe I might as well let you know that i've been hooking up with other people too but it's fine tho because you do the exact same right" Lana admits with a sarcastic tone to her voice. What the fuck did she just do. Why did she tell him that. For fuck sake Lana if he tells my parents I guarantee they won't let me see her anymore. "What?" Brad says confused. "Yeah it's true see" Lana says.

I stand up quickly and grab my dress, before walking in the bathroom and locking the door. Lana has ruined everything. I know she was angry and she has a right to be but she shouldn't of told him. "Lana if you don't stop seeing other people I will leave you and you will have nothing, no job no money, nothing. Now come on we're going to our room too fuck" Is the last thing i hear Brad say before they leave. I don't know what to say, i don't know what to feel and i certainly do not know what to do after what just happened.