my little secret ; lana del rey

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"Let's go to my house if you want?" Lana says to us. Lucas jumps up and down "yes yes yes" he says excitedly. "I'm going to blind fold you all the way there so you don't leak my address" Lana says to Lucas laughing.

"Lucy do you mind driving us?" Lana asks struggling to get all of her bags. "Of course, here give me that" I say to her, getting one of the bags and my friends grab the remaining ones. "Thanks guys" Lana says to the arena staff. They thank her and say goodbye before we go to my car. "Shit it still looks brand new" Lana says pointing at my car. "How do you know about her car?" Danielle asks. "Me and my ex got it, like her parents paid for it and shit but we got it from the garage and drove it to her house on her birthday" Lana tells them and they look at me shocked. "Shot gun" Lana shouts and runs to the front passenger seat.

"Here put your address in" I say to Lana getting the map up on my car screen. She types in her address and it begins to direct me. "Oh yeah look what i found" i say passing Lana the CD I found earlier and beginning driving. "omg that's the first recording of born to die" she says looking at her writing on the front. "i remember playing it in your car". I laugh and she puts it on for my friends to hear.

"You have arrived at your destination" the weird map lady says as I pull into Lana's drive way, her house is huge. "Welcome" Lana says holding the door for us, she smiles at me before I go inside.

"Hi Damian, thanks for cleaning for me, can you make my friends your special cocktails" Lana says to a random man who's sat in her living room. "Please do not tell me you have a servant" I say to Lana laughing. "No he's my cleaner, but he's also a bartender, he looks after my house while i'm away" She tells us and laughs back. "i'm not that lazy".
"Lana can I look around?" Lucas asks. "Go ahead all of you, explore, roam free" Lana tells us while she goes to her bar.

While my friends explore the music studio area I decide to go upstairs. I look around all the rooms until I find what looks like Lana's bedroom. The walls are painted white, she was dark wooden floors, her bed is huge, she has photos and awards all around her walls. I open the doors to her balcony and stand looking over her pool area. This house is beautiful. "Do you like it?" Lana says behind me making me jump. "Fuck you scared me" I say calmly making Lana smile. "Sorry" She says and stands next to me watching the stars. We stand in silence for a while just looking round at our surroundings. "I missed you" Lana says softly, her voice quieter than usual. "Why? you have all this now?" I say to her, not intending to sound rude. "I know, and it's amazing but it's so fucking lonely, i can't trust or talk to anyone that i work with, i effects my mental health really badly" She tells me. I can't believe that after all these years she still trusts me enough to tell me stuff like this. "I missed you to" I say quietly. She looks at me and then looks at my hand which is on her balcony fence, before placing her cold hand on mine.

"Lana I can't believe you have your own merch shop in your house" Lucas says coming in the room with Danielle. I pull my hand away from Lana's and walk inside. "Out of here you 2 this room is private" Lana says, they nod and leave and I start to follow them. "Lucy, take this your hands are freezing" Lana's says stopping me before I exit the room. She throws me one of her hoodies which i thank her for.

Lana joins us down stairs with 2 gift bags in her hands. "I made you both a goodie bag" She says, giving them to Danielle and Lucas. They thank her and look through at all the merch and stuff she has given them.

It's been about 2 hours now and me and my friends have decided to leave. Lana told us to stay the night but I can't, Kelsey would be pissed at me. "Thank you for everything Lana" Lucas says and gives her a massive hug before getting in the car with Danielle. I open my car door and turn around to face Lana was stood behind me. "Thank you so much for coming today, I think i really needed to see you it's cheered me up massively" Lana tells me, holding my hand. "It's ok, I was terrified but it was worth it" I tell her. I go to get in the car but she stops me and pulls me into her warm body. "I'll text you to make sure your home, your numbers still the same right?" She says into my neck, her breath tickling my skin. "Yeah" I whisper. "Bye" she says pulling away. I smile and get into the car, she shuts the door behind me and I roll my window down so everyone can say there last goodbyes. She puts her hand in the window and leans in looking at everyone. "Have fun at college, i'll come see you all sometime" She tells them. "Yeah come to our dorm, it's a party" Danielle says. Lana laughs and looks at me, she tucks my hair behind my ear. "Drive safe you" She tells me. "Always" I reply. She moves out the way so I can roll the window up and we leave her house.

"That was the best day of my life" Lucas says, causing danielle to laugh. "Me too" She agrees.