Billie Eilish - I Don't Wanna Be You Anymore
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Louis' P.O.V.
Okay, so I'm sure its noticeable, probably, but I'm gay. I've been out since secondary school. 8th grade to be more specific. I told Ni, Z, Li, Haz and Teddy when I met them. Like when we first started hanging out and one of them would bring up relationships, I'd put into the conversation that I'm gay.
Anyway, I'm getting off track. Point is, I know I'm gay. Everyone knows I'm gay. But, right now, I'm confused. I don't know when or where or how I gained feelings for Harry. But they're there. And I'm not sure if I like that I like him.
He's dating Kendall -my friend. And he's one of my best friends....ohh go- this is a recipe for disaster. I could loose two friends- wait why am I even thinking about that. This little crush will go away in no time. I just gotta keep reminding myself that he's TAKEN. Not Available. Basically I need to put a 'CAUTION' on him....breathe Louis, breathe.
Okay. You can do this Louis. Just stay away from him, don't spend too much ti- SHIT! We share a BLOODY ROOM. Shit. Shit. SHIT!!
Ohh shit he's staring at me. GREAT....
"Ugh Lou, you okay? You look... constipated. You're also staring really intently at me, so..." Harry says and his green eyes are shinning. His lips are pink from him chewing on them, bitten raw. Look so kissable. SHIT!
I take a deep breathe in before squezzing my eyes shut and shaking my head. I blink them open rapidly and say, "What, of yea I'm fine. Just fine".
He hums and looks down for a second and we make instant eye contact. Holy- " So what do you want to do. It's barely our first day here and its 1:26 in the afternoon. We can literally do anything." He smiles and I'm frozen looking at his dimples. CAUTION LOUIS!! CAUTION!!
"The beach. I mean, we are in Miami. There's no better place to go to the beach besides California" he nods with that stupid lovely smile. Ugh. I hate him. I hate that smile.
"Okay, I'll message everyone and tell them to get ready and be down in the lobby in 45"
I nod and sigh when he leaves the room to go change.
I'm in deep shit. I am, aren't I. Huh. Who would have thought. The most cliche thing ever. Falling for my bestfriend, well one of them anyway. Yup. I'm screwed.
I get up to walk into the room but pause when I see Harry sliding up his shorts, barley seeing his pelvis. V-lines.
He throws on a shirt. And before he looks up to see me, I quickly shut the door and open it again to make it seem as if I just opened it. To make it seem as if I didn't see a thing. Not a thing.
I force a smile to hide how I feel a heat in my stomach and the memory replaying in my head.
I walk to the drawers to take out my shorts and shirt and walk to the bathroom. Ignoring Harry, trying to get the image of him out of my head.
But of course, being away from him, locked in the bathroom, made it all the more worse. In. Every. Way. Possible.
Just a quick wank. I think to myself. Just don't think about Harry.....or his V-lines.
And well, the opposite happens and I'm left promising myself to not let it happen again.
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Chapter 13✔. So I tried something different. I wanted to incorporate Lou's thoughts into the story...how do u like it???
Anyway, its 12:03 AM rn, and I got my first day back to school in a few hrs....soo goodnight/ morning🌑☀.
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Thanks for reading💙💚❤
8/26/19
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