Beautiful Mess (l.s.)

FIFTEEN.

Years & Years - Breathe
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Harry's P.O.V.

I watch as Louis runs to the water. I never really noticed how his bum juggled up and down as he ran until now. Damn.

I close my eyes and shake my head. Kendall. Your with Kendall. Your girlfriend. I sigh in frustration.

I don't get why I'm thinking about Louis this way. I have a girlfriend. A lovely girlfriend. Although she can be a bit much at times. I like her a lot. And Louis, well he's my bestfriend. Has been for years.

I know he's gay. And I know I'm straight. So I just dont understand why I keep getting these thoughts of Louis. But I don't hate it. It bugs me cause I'm in a relationship but I'm not totally against it.

"Haz? You good?" I turn and see Liam looking at me, concerned.

I clear my throat and suddenly the sand looks really interesting. "Yea....yea I'm good". Its obvious. He knows I'm lying.

"Okay" he says as he looks at the water leaning back on his hands. The tone he said it in was in the way that says 'I don't believe you but if you don't want to talk about it then I understand'.

I drop my head with a sigh.

"I'm really confused right now and I don't know what to do about it". I admit.

He nods with a glance in my direction before humming. "Well, I don't know what it is that's confusi-" I cut him off.

"Its Louis. I keep staring at him. Imagining things. Noticing things about him that I haven't before and...ugh. I-I find that I don't hate it. And I don't get why I don't. And It's really messing with my head. Cause on one hand, I've got Kendall. And she's great. Ive been with her for almost a year. And yea we've had problems. But every couple does. So I'm just really confused with why I feed into these thoughts". It just comes out and it feels so good to say that out loud.

"I don't know what to do Liam. I'm scared. I don't want to do anything stupid. And I have almost done somethings. I almost kissed him. On the plane and I'm not like that. I don't cheat. My mom raised me to be better than that. And I want to be better than those wankers that cheat on their girlfriends or boyfriends." It all rushes out before I have time to think. "Please tell me what to do Li" I beg him as I feel my throat closing up.

"Well I know where your coming from, " he tells me and when I give him a look he says "but, that's a story for another time." He puts his arm around me before continuing;

"Anyway, what I want you to ask yourself is if your sure that your 100 percent straight. And yea, it'll be scary to admit to yourself if your not. But in the long run, it'll help. Also you need try to understand these thoughts of yours. Cause I think that there is something going on in that pretty head of yours that you've been avoiding." He says the last part while tapping my forehead with his fingertip.

I nod with a little smile. But in my head, my thought wheels are spinning. What does all this mean?

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After staying at the beach for another hour or so, we haul taxi's back to the hotel with Niall sporting a small sunburn.

When we get to our floor, I decide to go with Niall and Ed to their room to help Niall with his sunburn. I bring my bag as well since I got some things that are good for sunburn.

After being there for about 40 minutes I leave Niall, and Ed. When I enter my room, I hear the shower running and decide to cook food for us.

The water shuts off and to say I expected Louis to walk out naked, would be a lie. Like stark naked. Everything is visable.

I need to leave.

As quickly as possible, I reach the door and I knock over the key bowl placed by the door. Shit!

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Chapter 15✔. Nightclub next chapter😉😛.

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