No Strings Attached || Grayson Dolan

28. THE ONE WTH THE SICKNESS

April 27th
POV Sierra
Lydia has been throwing up nonstop the past days and I'm starting to worry about her. She literally feels fine, it's just a lot of throwing up.

"How are you feeling honey?" Mom comes in the room and asks Lydia, who's laying in her bed. I'm so relieved mom responded this well to taking Lydia in, I don't know what I'd do otherwise.

"I'm fine, thanks. I just want to rest and-" she starts but doesn't get to finish the sentence before she rushes to the bathroom for the second time this morning.

"I'll take it" I say to mom who nods and walks out of the room while I walk to the bathroom to help Lydia. I hold her hair back and stroke her back lightly.

We just sit there together on the bathroom floor for a while. We just sit in silence, because we both know that nothing that either of us could say would make it better.

I realize that I have to say something, I know she'll respond badly to it, but it needs to be said.

"Look Lyd, you don't think you could be... right?" I ask and Lydia looks at me with nothing but panic in her eyes.

"I think I'm pregnant Sierra"

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I forced mom to go out to buy pregnancy tests, because if I did it, it'd look horrible and if Lydia did it herself it would look even more horrible. I figured that if mom did it, nobody will raise their eyebrows.

Mom comes in to the bathroom and hands me the tests, yes she bought several, before opening her mouth.

"I'll leave you to it. Whatever the stick says, we'll be here for you" She says to Lydia and bends down to hug her, even though she's still sitting on the floor. As mom passes me on the way out, she puts a hand on my shoulder and squeezes lightly.

I can't even begin to imagine what's going through Lydia's head right now, with everything going on with her family and now this. I can't even believe she's still sane, I think I'd go insane if this would've happened to me. I think what tears on her the most is that it's her biggest dream to become a mother, but not like this. Her mother's past mistakes really affects Lydia with things like this.

"This can't be happening. I can't repeat my mom's mistakes" she suddenly says and takes the thoughts out of my head.

"Hey, let's not jump into conclusions. It could be food poisoning or something" I try to calm her down and try to make her understand that she might not even be pregnant. Lydia has a tendency to always think about the worst outcomes, not all the possibilities.

"Do you want me to leave you alone?" I break the silence that had formed between us and nod towards the stick. Lydia just nods slowly and I walk out.

Those next few minutes are filled with tension and a little bit of fear. The timer on Lydia's phone rings, meaning the results should be in.

"I can't look, you do it" she panics and throws the stick to me, and I catch it without looking at it. I know it won't be easy for me to reveal the answer to her, especially if it's positive, but I know it'll be even harder for her to read the answer herself.

"It's negative. Lyd, you're not pregnant" I say and I don't think I've ever seen a person this relived. A huge weight has definitely been lifted off of her shoulders, and I understand.

"Gosh" she sighs and then she starts laughing hysterically, almost mocking herself. This is also typical Lydia, she has some sort of crazy defense mechanism where she handles serious situations as if they have never happened. That's exactly what she's doing right now, I've seen it before.

"Lyd, I think you need some time to process all this" I say calmly but she just keeps laughing.

"Process what?" See, I told you. She's gonna act like this never happened. "I'm not pregnant, great, now let's move on with life"

"Whatever you say. I'm here for you if you wanna talk, always" I say because I realize that it's useless trying to argue with her, she won't give in anyway. "Come on, you need to get out of the house. Let's go for a walk"

POV Lydia

Alright, I'm not pregnant. Not pregnant. Not pregnant. That rolls off the tongue quite nice. I don't know what I would have done if there was 2 lines on the test, I obviously don't want to have a child right now but I definitely don't want to go through an abortion. Well, I guess I don't have to worry about that this time.

"Earth to Lydia?" Sierra breaks my bubble and I'm suddenly aware of my surroundings.

"Yeah sorry, zoned out for a second there" I apologize and Sierra chuckles lightly.

"Definitely. Isn't it nice to get some fresh air?" She asks and I nod, in a way I think this is what I needed. The past days has been rough, and I'm still not good.

"It is" I say and look down at my feet as I walk, looking for the right words for what I wanna say next. "Look, not a word about this, okay?"

"What?"

"I don't want anybody to know about this, I'd rather just forget it"

"Not even Grayson?" She questions and I gotta admit that I haven't thought of that.

"I don't know. I just need some time" I admit and she nods understandably. It seems like neither of us has anything more to say, since the last minutes home are walked in silence.
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