The Waves

Waves

It starts slow

And you never see it coming either

A wave hits and pulls you deep into the water

You think nothing of it

Thinking you can just swim back up and be fine again

Until another wave comes

And another

And another

They pull you so far under to where you can't see the light

You don't realize it until it is too late and the light is gone

So you swim upward wanting to see it again and the further up you swim your hope rises with it

You swim faster and right when you think you can break surface...

But another wave comes and forces you down again

So you try to swim up again

And the same thing happens

Again

And again

And again

And again and again until your used to it

The cycle of swimming up just to be forced back down

The darkness surrounds you and makes you feel lost and alone

You feel like you can't call for help

You feel so lost and broken while everyone else feels so free and happy swimming on the surface

Not a care in the world while you stay under water

Drowning in your own thoughts and fears

It feels so overwhelming and scary

Like nothing can stop it and everything just spirals out of control

You feel helpless and sad

So so sad

You want it to be over

To be able to breathe again

But something always pulls you down

You just want it to stop.

But it won't

You just want to remember what happiness feels like because you haven't felt it in so long

But if you ask for help you're scared that person will drown with you

That they will get sucked into your problems too

So you silently cry out hoping someone will see

But you feel like no one does.

So you sit and wait.

Sinking further and further beneath the water.

Further and further into the darkness.