Fix You (Zayn Malik Fanfiction)

Chapter Four

Chapter 4 FYZM

--Skys brother on the side! -- (:

-Skylar-

"IM NOT GOING ON THIS TOUR WITH .. THEM!" I shouted at Ryan, glaring towards the boys who stood by the bus, looking completely oblivious to the whole scenario that was taking place. 

This can't be happening. I can't see him again.. It always seems to break my heart whenever he's present. Looking at him right now, I remember how he threw my heart away, and never gave it back.. Looking at him right now, I'm remembering how much impact he put on my life, how much life he took away from me, all because he didn't care about my feelings.. Is it really that easy? To tell someone you supposedly 'love' that you can't be with them anymore? To break someone's heart? Because if it is, then how come I can't do it to Zayn? How come a part of me wants to get revenge, but the other half doesn't.

"Skylar, you are going on this tour, with one direction. Understand?" Ryan gritted his teeth, clenching his fists with my large fit that I just pulled, while his eyes stared deeply into mine, piercing his grey eyes right through my blue ones..

"YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND! YOUR JUST MY MANAGER! YOU CAN'T TELL ME WHAT TO DO!" I shouted, clenching my fists into a ball, squeezing them tight and taking all anger out on them..

"I sure as hell can tell you what to do, unless you want this all to be over! Unless you want your whole career to go shooting down the drain! I could cancel your tour, and I sure as fuck will do that if you dont go on this one!" He snapped, grabbing my arm and dragging me inside the tour bus. Tears slipped through my eyes, falling lightly on the grey pavement below me, and staining it. I passed the boys, not daring to look into their eyes, while they all looked shocked as to what I was crying about.

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"Yes mum, I'm okay." I told my mum, my cheeks were stained with tears while my voice was almost a whisper.. 

I could hear the lads muffling voices from the sitting room, and the distant sound of a moving machine filled my ears as the bus drove down the highway..

"Baby, I don't know what your going through, but you have to face him," she said, her voice cracking. My mum is really close to me, she's always been there when I need a shoulder, or when I just need a mum..  

Two years ago, my mum got diagnosed with Cancer.. Leukaemia to be exact. I remember the exact day, the exact hour, and the exact minute. Why? Because it was one of the most heart wrenching moments of my life. It was when things were getting worse after the Zayn incident. I had no hope, no strength, and no more fears.. I was always emotionless. I showed no emotion to anyone, and in return, no one showed any emotion to me.  

When my mum was feeling these symptoms of throwing up blood, old and new, and having alot of dizziness, I wanted to know what was wrong. "Im fine, Sky." Mum would always say, which just made me more worried. I didn't believe her, so I took her to the doctor.. They ran some tests, and it just went downhill from there..  

With every penny I earn in my career, it goes towards the UNICEF, Sick kids, and Cancer research. They are important to me.. My life may not be the best, but it makes me feel better when I know I just made someone else's life better.

"I know mum, but its just so hard." I sobbed into the speaker, wiping my eyes that were filled at the brim with my clear tears. Even though I felt like I didn't have a heart, it feels like its ripping apart all over again.

"Sky, when I met your father," she started, making me sigh in annoyance at the stories she usually tells about her past years.

"Sky, just listen." She spoke, hearing my sigh in the speaker.