JADAS POV
i went in to give him another hug he grabbed me closely again and squeezed me. he was sniffling i think he was crying again. i've never seen him like this. he sat back up wiping his eyes. we stared at each other but it was the type of stare that you didn't acknowledge the other person was staring back. he was beautiful. i've never looked at him in this way.
his eyes were a gorgeous green, his skin and lips looked so soft. i felt weird thinking of him in this way. my heart started to race. "alex?" "jada." he slowly moved towards me. our faces were so close. he put his hand on my face. "i don't know what's going on." he whispered to me. "i don't know either." i whispered back.
he closed his eyes and i closed mine too he moved closer until i felt his soft pink lips touch mine. his hands went up and down my waist. what am i doing this is my bestfriend i cant catch feelings for him. i just can't. we slowly laid down until he was completely on top of me. still kissing me he wrapped his arm under me and around my waist. my fingers started to graze through his thick hair.
"alex what are we doing?" i said breaking our kiss. "i don't know at this point." he went back down to kiss me again and i didn't stop him. he was fully on top of me and inbetween my legs. what are we doing. all these emotions i have towards him are erupting like a active volcano. my hands were exploring him. they went from his hair, to his shoulders, and eventually to his muscular back. i was oddly loving every moment of this.
he started to kiss more of me, he moved down on my neck with the slightest kisses making me shiver. nobody has ever done this to me. his kissing started to get slower and slower.
suddenly he stopped. he sat up frantically. "what the fuck is going on." he ran his fingers through his hair. "i gotta go." he said getting up and walking towards the stairs. "alex wait!" i got up following him. he rushed for the front door, he got outside walking to his car. i walked outside with no shoes on trying to stop him from driving away.
"alex what? i'm confused?" i said trying not to cry. he shook his head and drove out of my driveway and onto the street. i watched him drive away then i went back into my house. i closed my front door and locked it slamming my back against it. "where'd alex go?" my mom said walking down the stairs. "he had to go home." i ran up the stairs past my mom and closed my bedroom door. i immediately started crying. i'm so stupid.
i ruined me and alex's friendship and we will never go back to how we were. i knew i should have stopped him. i knew this wasn't right. i laid on my bed and cried. just cried my eyes out. why would he do that. he clearly wanted to kiss me so what made him run away like that. i ended up crying myself to sleep that night at around 4 am. i woke up the next day at 12:31 pm. my face was still red and a mess i looked at my phone to see no text message from alex.
i ended up texting him. "what the actual fuck is going on alex." i pressed send and waited for a response. didn't get one. i continued to text him getting no responses. i started to cry again knowing that me and alex were done since things would be too weird.
i stayed in my room the whole day not wanting my family to see me like this. i watched tv and didn't eat anything that day.
