JADAS POV
a full two days have gone by and i still haven't gotten a text from alex. he was ghosting me. the only time i'd hear from him is when he'd send his streaks. this is killing me. i haven't heard from jess either but i'm sure she hates me so i haven't tried to contact her. things are all messed up now and it's all my fault.
i couldn't help myself that night, i don't know what got into me. me and alex had a special connection that night different than any one we've ever had and we both can't deny that, but why? we have been friends forever and now these feelings want to arise? i cant have feelings for alex. i cant. but i need to talk to him.
there's no way he will answer me though. i thought to myself in my silent room thinking of a way i can fix this. until it finally hit me. i need to see him today whether he wants to talk or not. i put on some sweats and a t-shirt on and put my hair in a bun and got in my car to drive to alex's.
i repeatedly told myself that i'm not going to cry when i see him and if he turns me away. i just need to get to the bottom to this and have a word with him. i pulled up into his driveway and stepped out grabbing my phone. i walked towards his porch and rang the doorbell.
his mom walked up to the door excited to see me and eager to let me in. "jada i haven't seen you in a while!" she opened the door and i walked in, i smiled and took my shoes off. "is alex home?" i asked "yeah he's upstairs in his room you can go up there and check on him." i walked up the stairs my heart racing not knowing how he was going to react. i placed my hand on the door knob. i took a deep breath in and opened the door.
alex was face flat into his pillow with mellow music playing. he must've not heard me come in. he was wearing grey sweatpants and was shirtless exposing his back muscles. i slowly breathed in and turned the music down a little bit enough to where he'd notice it. he frantically flipped over to see who it was and his expression went blank when he saw me.
"what are you doing here." he flipped back over into his pillow "alex we need to talk. now." i said trying to be as civil as possible. "and what do we need to talk about." he said in muffled words. "alex don't play fucking stupid you know exactly what i'm talking about." he turned his head towards me "ok so what we kissed." "alex that was more than a kiss and me and you both know that."
alex's mom came into the room, "guys i'm going to be out for a while with a couple of friends don't get into too much trouble." "we won't." i smiled and she closed the door. we sat in silence for a couple of seconds neither of us knowing what to say. "i don't know what went through my mind that night." alex said getting up from the bed and walking towards his dresser and opening it. he was messing with something inside of it.
"i don't know either." i replied quietly. "what were you thinking when it happened." he shrugged i huffed and let out a breath. he turned towards me "can this just be over now." he said throwing his hands up in a fit. i was outraged. "alex how are you going to kiss me and then expect me not to be confused!" i said trying to hold my temper in.
"it was a kiss! a fucking simple kiss! why can't you put that in your fucking brain jada!" he yelled at me. my heart broke i stood up and grabbed my phone.
"fuck you alex." i stormed out of his room and he stood there. tears now streaming down my face i was sobbing. i ran down the stairs and out his front door. "jada!" he came out of his room and and tried to stop me from leaving. i hurried to my car trying to leave before he persuaded me to stay. i locked the doors and cried even harder trying to start the car. i've lost my best friend all over a 'stupid fucking kiss'
