small town girl | «kwon hyuk»

02.

'' Oh, I forgot to introduce myself. My name is Kwon Hyuk, but you can call me Dean'' The young man introduced himself after a long period of silence.

He could be a murderer or a rapist, but why did her feelings tell her otherwise?
Maybe it was the loneliness that influenced her choice, maybe it was the sadness, but something about him just seemed to be different.

'' I- I mean, you dont have to, I completely understand that, I wouldnt either. I just thought - ''

before he was able to end his sentence Ella cut him off with a quick '' Let's go''

Dean wasnt the person to walk up to a complete stranger at 2 am and take care of that person afterwards. Not because he was egotistic or anything like that, but rather because he couldnt even take care of himself to begin with. But something about her made him feel urged to help.

After 10 minutes of awkwardly walking in silence they finally arrived at a bar.
They were greeted by a typical bartender dressed in a typical white shirt and black pants.

They both ordered one beer each.
(Little did they know, that one beer could turn into 5 more.)

'' You know Dean, living sometimes hurts more than dying. ''

'' What makes you say something like that? '' His curiosity was hearable.

She hesitated for a moment. Questions filled her mind. Why should she open up to a complete stranger? Why should she pour out her heart, which has been suffering for so many years?
Her misery was undeniable.
For so many years, life was nothing more than tormentous, so why should she give others an insight into these wounds that life gave her?

Because her heart couldn't bear this burden any longer. The loneliness that many tried to avoid had become her best friend over the years. They were a dedicated and inseparable duo. But not that night.
She wanted to free herself from this grief and loneliness for just one night.

'' The typical "small town girl that is searching for happiness" story, I guess.
Strip clubs and dirty wine defined my life as an orphan at some point. I was looking for something to hold onto.
Then, just like magic, I met him, the mysterious dreamboy every girl is waiting for, in a bar pretty close to this one. We started talking and exchanging numbers and all that. We started to meet up frequently and as time passed I felt like someone actually cared about me and cherished me. He cared about the thingsI had to say. He cared about my wellbeing. He cared about every little thing related to me. He showed me the best of me I never knew about.
I quickly caught feelings for him. Actually I caught feelings for the good things I knew about him back then.
"The boy who made hell a little bit more bearable" , that's how I called him for a long period of time.
I became sober, left the cold streets of London and moved over to his place. From there on, a beautiful relationsship started.
I mean, we spent day and night together for more than 5 years. We even were engaged at some point and were expecting a baby girl.
I felt like the happiest human being back then.
How could I know that everything would turn out bad?
After 5 years of being happily together I caught him cheating with a complete stranger, knowing that I was expecting a little baby.
It was beyond painful to see the person you loved more than anyone else and even more than yourself giving away their love to someone else.
The thing that completely ended me though was the thought of him not even trying to stop me from leaving. He didn't even try to save everything we had. He just let it happen. Just like I didnt mean anything to him.
3 months after all this happened and I moved out my gorgeous daughter Aurora was born. She was born on the 24th september. She was born without anyone signing her birth certificate.
Even though I was still devastated by by what had happend I was thankful for having this little angle on my side.
But suddenly, 3 days after her birth, the doctors told me that I couldnt take her with me. When I asked them why all they said was that they were trying their best but the complications that came up were just to concise.
After 2 days of praying and hoping for my little girl that everything would end up being okay, she left me 4 days after her birth. And all of this at the age of 22'' Her eyes were filling with tears.

'' I am so sorry for what happened to you'' He regretted asking.

''You dont have to feel sorry. It's not you fault that misfortune is following me around''

'' Im so sorry for all these obstacles that happened to you. I do partly understand the pain a cheater can cause"

''Did the something like that happen to you too? '' She looked up with a questioning gaze.

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A/N: i srsly love dean