La Bella Mafia

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"don't wanna love you, don't wanna need you
Just wanna leave you
(I swear)
I just want it to be over..."
Keyshia Cole- (I Just Want It) To Be Over

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A few weeks later...

I laid in my bed with my eyes closed as Keyshia Cole's "The Way it Is" album played. I had been doing that a lot lately. Sometimes I would just take long drives, with no where in mind. I just wanted to be alone. I needed so much me time right now.

I was somewhat disappointed with myself and where I was going with things. Especially in my love life. I was cheating on my boyfriend of a year, with the love of my life while my "boyfriend" was cheating on me with stripper bitches and who knows who else.

I already knew if Dre slept with that bitch, there were others. I knew Dre's type from the beginning, he liked those thick bitches. I always wondered why the hell he was so interested in me. I wasn't skinny or anything but I wasn't thick like those girls either. Like this Brittney bitch. She was a pretty girl with a fake ass body. In no way was I insecure about myself-I mean, of course I had a few insecurities but I've grown to accept them and love them. My insecurities remind me everyday that I am human. I'm not perfect.. and that's okay.

Of course I have the money to change my body and looks if I really wanted to. I could get those surgeries just like the bitches Dre went after, if I really wanted to. I could afford to get the good shit too, but why do it? The only man I ever loved adored my body. He never made me feel like it wasn't good enough for him. I've always felt comfortable with him. That man always made me feel like the sexiest woman on earth and I was really missing that feeling right about now. It wasn't about me feeling ugly, it was about me feeling loved. With Dre stepping out, it made me feel unloved. What made it worst was that I felt like I couldn't even run to Sincere because we weren't speaking.

I had just gotten back from Philly with the girls, and Dre's team. The trip wasn't fun, it was business related. Dre was having some trouble with some niggas who were dumb and thought they could hide out in Philly. Of course we lured them niggas in and once we did our end of the job, myself and the girls left Dre and his guys to finish it off.

I was happy Dre wasn't here at the house. Just being with him for the past week has been hard. Every day this nigga wanted to fuck. I was giving him the cold shoulder though. He picked up on it but never mentioned anything to me. He just continued to be all over me. Which annoyed me, I was waiting for him to do something wrong. Any kind of fuck up so that I could throw the pictures in his face. I was still trying to think of a way to expose this clown ass nigga for cheating on me.

Sincere text me while we were out there but it was short. We went from talking on the phone for hours to only a simple wassup. It was depressing. I knew where I wanted to be. I just didn't know to get to that place. It always seemed like shit wasn't meant to be with Sincere sometimes. Shit would be going well with the both of us and then boom; Something bad would happen and the both of us would get into our petty/stubborn bag. Once we were in that space it was hard to get out.

I turned over on my stomach and reached for my phone which sat on the left side of me. My hands had a mind of their own as they typed in Sincere's Instagram. I had been doing this for the past 3 weeks now. I wanted to check up on him. I had to make sure he wasn't out with any stink ass bitches.

I watched his story and saw that last night he was at a strip club. What stuck out to me was the bitch that was dancing on him. Obviously his friend had recorded the video of them two, where she shook her big fake ass all on my man.

This was the same bitch that was all on Dre too! Brittney Barbie. I could never forget her hoe ass name. Ever since Nicki came out, bitches always claimed to be barbies. Girl bye. The bitch was cute but she wasn't all of that to me. She looked like every other stripper bitch. Obnoxious tattoos and fake ass tits and a fake ass. Nothing was different or unique about her. She sported a black long wig with a bang this time. Guess she was going for the Blac Chyna look now. This bitch has no style of her own.