Let's just imagine that every time you saw a certain someone, you feel angry
Sad
You would avoid them right?
But what if they lived with you?
And u saw them all day?
Or pretty much all day
And they even work at home?
And there are multiple of them
All around you
And not even your room is safe cause you share it with one
But it's the safest
Cause if you leave you'll get ridiculed
And yelled at
And shamed
And felt ashamed
But not really cause u feel nothing.
At least that's what you want you believe.
And you barely talk to friends.
And rot in your room.
For hours upon hours without doing anything
Not even eating until midnight
And are still on the bigger side
Scratch that last part.
What if you spent time writing, and drawing your worries away.
But not really.
Cause you don't progress in life.
And people tell you that someone's proud of you but u know it's not true.
What if you want to hang out with people but you know that.... just that
And you cover it all up with a smile that looks so real it could be a clone.
A happier, more fun clone?
And you can switch it on as fast as light.
So fast no one even blinks an eye.
What if you're caught and they ask "What's wrong?"
And You can simply say nothing and they'll believe you?
AND BEST OF ALL IS THAT THEY THINK YOU'RE LIFE IS PEACHY
JUST peachy
Cause you get good grades and are always smiling
Pfttt who am I kidding
Me?
The happy one?
No way I'm an ANTI SOCIAL
As said by a dick
Haha I need a supportive friend
Not that I don't have one I just want one I can talk to and not feel embarrassed
One that's not online but real.
Sksksk omg I'm joking myself
I'm running out of self hatred and people around me hatred.
This has gotten off track.
I strongly dislike many people
What if you were blamed 24/7 for what someone else has done?
What if that person was rude, spoiled, and ... but they still got love from everyone?
While you got shit for not spoiling home too?
What if your dad blamed you for everything he couldn't do,
And your mom yelled at you for everything you do wrong
Nitpicking at every crack and crevice that you're just a hole?
She's perfect.
But you can't stay mad because you're incapable of doing so.
But we're all just..., but I'm just imagining.
Of course this isn't real
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Butterfly | A book of rants
Random• Butterfly • - For u a book and a bug - For me a coping mechanism I'm just writing this to rant about my feelings. ⚠️ Contains cursing and some sad shit • Also contains my weird thoughts • This is pure bored, sad, and fucked up emotions •...
