pokemon | yoon dowoon [SLOW UPDATES]

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soyeon pov
¡message request from ridejaehyung!

i sat up abruptly and started violently rubbing my eyes, what i was seeing could not be true. there was no way on god's green earth that HE had my number. i've made sure to block all his accounts and every social media platform possible AND his number so what the fuck is going on?

what is it with men these days?! that dowooon guy was going on about how i can trust him and now my ex, park fucking jaehyung, is messaging me? the NEVRE. their nevres are getting on mine!

sigh, i'd like to believe that this was fake or maybe all a dream and i would wake up from and pray would never ever ever EVER come true, but after the events of last week...

flashback
as i moved my left foot forward, ready for death, i felt a pair of strong arms wrap around my waist and drag me down.

how.fucking.cliche. who could have possibly saved me? who would even know i'm up here?!

though their grip was strong i was able to fully turn my body around and look at who my "saviour" was.

this can't be. no no no no no no. i'm dreaming right? this is all a bloody dream and i'm going to wake up soon right?!

i froze.

after snapping out of my shock i ripped their arms off me and backed up. the reason why i wanted to jump and end my life right here and now was standing right in front of me.

mute.

mute was what i had become.
end flashback

i was sure it was real, unfortunately. if jae had the guts to barge into my house, unannounced and definitely unwelcome, he sure had the guts to send me text message. i wish i could charge him for breaking and entering but i left the door open so that on me. what a stupid time to choose to be a dumb bitch.

hours passed, and all i could do was stare at the notification from my lock screen with sweaty palms and rapid heart palpitations.

it's not going to open itself, soyeon. see what nonsense he has to say and just block him immediately after. let him know that what happened last week is none of his business. you're stronger than this, you know you are.

okay brain shut up! i'll open it

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would you like to accept the message request from ridejaehyung?
yes | no

here goes fucking nothing. nothing being 2 years of building my self confidence back up and trying to better my mental state but- let me breathe.

ridejaehyung:
hey...
i don't even know how to say this because i don't think i'm in any position to do so but are you okay? have you been eating well and taking care of yourself? i couldn't believe what happened last week... i just wanted to see you and then you were about to
nevermind.
i cant believe i haven't even apologised
that's what you deserve right now, an apology.
i'm so so so sorry. what i did to you 2 years ago was so horrible and i should have never violated you like that. i was immature and dumb and disrespectful and every single bad word in the book.
can't believe i let such a good girl go, you were a blessing
i hope you see this, if you don't respond that's okay but if you do... well i hope you can find a place in your heart to forgive me
this is very bold of me to say but... i hope we can rekindle what we once had.
please take care, soyeon
delivered 7:50 pm

woah.. that caught me off guard. i didn't know think he had it him to say things like this. maybe he really matured and grew. should i respond to him? do i forgive him? he seems really sincere...

ha! that's the dumb bitch in me talking. fuck all of that sappy shit. all men do is lie!
now i'm a blessing? NOW he realises that he was dumb and immature?! are y'all seeing this mess. he's an absolute joke and i'm turning my read receipts back on just so he can see that i've ignored his ass.

wait... who am i kidding? this battle with my brain isn't going to get me anywhere. i'm putting up a front but to be honest, i'm conflicted. i don't know what to do and i need help. there's only one person on my mind right now that i wanna turn to...

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Y'ALL I FINALLY UPDATED! i hope you enjoy reading it <3
should she forgive jae and start over with him or should she turn to the person on her mind? comment and don't forget to vote!