Poetry

Pain

White
All over me
Where did it start
When did it start

Dull ache
Unbearable
But must be beared
Must go on

Fatigued
Tired
Exhausted
Done

Part of you
Normal
Unbearable pain
Must be beared

Throbbing
Pounding
With every breath
But from what?

Life?
Death?
Future?
Past?

You try to fix it
Everything
But nothing works
Useless

The pain continues
Part of you
Like a shadow
A second skin

So tired
Done
Lethargic
Done

Only way out is unthinkable
Yet so tempting
Just there
Yet so untouchable

You want it
Your only relief
But so unfair
But not on you

Life is unfair to you
Giving you so much pain
And allowing no relief
Depriving

It jeers
Just allowing a taste
Just the bear minimum
Your hooked

You need it
But can't have it
Unfair
Yet safer

The pain returns
White
Unbearable
But bearable

Your used to it
The numbness
Emptiness
Fragile

Yet so strong
You bear this
This harm
Tough

One day
It's to much
You see it
The answer

And you take it
The only solution
For a bearable life
And that's no life at all

You finally did it
The pain is gone
Inside and out
Because you did it

Gone
Like the pain
But
What's to gain

A life was lost
At what gain
One less problem
One less sufferer

All over a jeer
The solution just past arms reach
Teasing
Depriving

Relief
Sated
Happy
No more pain

Free