Poetry

Repeated Loneliness

Hallow brick walls repeated
Enclosing me inside
Cold
Yet comforting
Familiar
Yet new
Dark yet I can see
Like I'm viewing from above
Able to move
Yet not to grasp
Like a ghost
Not conscious of how I got here
Or how to leave
Trapped
Yet feeling free

I call
no answer
It doesn't bother me
Or does it?
I don't feel anything
Other than neutral
No sadness
No happiness
Just nothing

Yet
I don't complain
I feel peaceful
Like I'm meant to be here
Guarding something
That something I don't know
Like I have a purpose
More than I had before
I have a job
Something only i know
Yet I don't
Forever in this turmoil
Of curiosity
Yet
Lack there of
Like I am here in body
Yet not mind
Like a spectator
In a stadium
Watching from afar
Not able to touch
Yet observe
As my body is used for protection
For a forse I am not aware of

I feel the cracks forming
I can feel
It starts from my feet
Like a tidal wave
It washed up through me
Emotions
Images
Memories

And then nothing
Like it never happened
I assume my memory will fade again
This feels like it happened before
Just to keep me sane

Hollow brick walls
Enclosing me inside
Cold
Yet comforting