How can this be? (Phan fanfiction)(boyxboy)

I'll admit it now...

Dans POV

I woke up the next morning, and I was planning on going back to sleep, but I noticed two things. One I was in Phil's bed again and Phil wasn't here and two I heard crying. I rushed up and searched the whole house and couldn't discover where it was coming from. That's when I realized that I hadn't checked my room.

Once I came upon my room I shoved the door open and found Phil huddled in my covers in a ball with bloodshot red eyes and soaked cheeks. My covers were getting wet too but I didn't care because it broke my heart to see Phil sad.

I ran over to him and got under the covers with him and embraced him I to a hug.

"Philly what's wrong", I said into his jet black hair, and yes I called him Philly.

"I h-had a n-n-nightmare", Phil choked out.

"Awe what was it about?", I hoped that talking about it would help him.

"I h-had a dream that you and I were on a date-", he sobbed a bit and I was hoping that us dating wasn't the bad part. "-and then you decided that you weren't gay and you started to yell at me", he started to choke and I patted his back telling him to slow down and breathe.

"T-then you beat me up because you thought I was a freak and told me that you'd never love me and then you just left me and kicked me out of the house...and I'm now terrified you'll leave me forever and hate me and so I came to your room to get a last look and smell just in case you were gonna leave me." he laid his head in my chest and sobbed and I could feel him grasping my shirt.

"Shhh it's ok, and don't worry Phil I would never leave you.", I said hugging him closely.

"You don't understand though.", Phil mumbled into my shirt. I was so lost, but I had a feeling what he was getting at.

"What don't I understand? Please tell me.", I continued to hold him close.

"Uhm just nothing", I wanted so bad to know what was bothering Phil it just broke my heart to know how sad he is.

"Please tell me? Not like I'd laugh or judge,", I moved my arms to where they were around Phil's middle to pull him closer to me so I could look into his eyes.

"I'm-", he paused and sighed, "I'll be fine it was just a nightmare.", he finished with uncertainty.

"It's not fine, Phil because I'm worried and sad now, just please tell me!", Phil gasped and started to tear up again and slipped out of my grip and moved away from me. I realized that I was yelling. I was so disappointed in myself to yell at poor Phil in this state.

I moved to where Phil was, and he was huddled into a ball ducking his head into his knees. I tried to wrap my arms around him, but he struggled away.

"I'm so sorry Phil I'm just worried about you I didn't mean to raise my voice at you.", I said sympathetically.

"Well you still did, and this is turning out to be my nightmare in real life.", that almost brought me to tears. I rushed and kind of forcefully wrapped my arms around Phil shushing him soothingly and comforting him.

"No no Phil that's not going to happen I'm really truly sorry.", I grasped him tighter but not too tight. "Phil please forgive me I'd never do something like that to you or period.", I sniffled about to cry but trying not to for Phil.

"Promise?", he looked at me with red eyes, and I could tell he was crying and it was heart breaking. I couldn't help, but to pull him into a hug.

"Yes, I promise.", he smiled which made me smile.

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Dans POV (again)

I told Phil I'd take him out today, and I told him it was a surprise. He was so eager to know what we were gonna do. We were heading outside and I told Phil to go ahead because I was going to grab our cameras, because we're YouTubers.