The thoughts of a million

Emotions are weird.

Today has been an odd day.
First, I wake up and I'm sore all over.
Second, all I do, is watch movies.
Third, my sister's sick.
Fourth, my dad's sick.
And towards the end of the day,
My mom has to go to the store.
Seems ok, right?
That's what I thought.
My mom tells all of us that she has to go to the store.
My three year old sister says "I wanna come with you"
My mom says "no, you're sick"
She screams, and I try to get her,
Her face goes horrorstruck.
Do you know how much that hurts?
That your little sister, who you love with all your heart,
Looks at you,
Like your the cause of her nightmares?
Her monster under her bed?
It's heart breaking.
My chest still hurts from seeing her look at me like that.
And when she stopped screaming,
Because my mom picked her up,
I tried to reach out and get her.
She looked at me like I was a monster,
And she stated crying again.
I felt angry, sad, and betrayed.
But I mostly felt heartbroken.
But she's given me that look so many times,
I've grown used to it.
Which I feel I shouldn't be.
Emotions are weird.
But necessary, I suppose.
Ugh.
Emotions are weird.