I met with Zayn the next day. He insisted I tell him what was going on. He was worried about me. He was the only one I ever told. I knew if I told you, you would go straight to management, despite my pleas for you not too. If I told Liam he would have told you. If I told Niall that would lead to him telling Liam, and Liam telling you.
Zayn ordered us food and I told him what had been going on. I made him swear not to tell you, so don't be mad at him. Be mad at me, I deserve it. Zayn helped me through a lot of shit. From this point on I told him everything. I told him things I should have told you but, I couldn't.
Harry I'm so so sorry. I shouldn't have put you through all of that. If I known how this was going to turn out I would have told you everything right from the start. You always came to me with your problems, I just wish I did come to you.
After Zayn and I had talked about everything he told me that me and him were going to take a trip, just to get away for a week. We didn't though, because management had to ruin that! they don't let us have any freedom any more and, I'm sick of it! they shouldn't be able to control our every move, who we date, what we eat, what we wear, but most importantly, who we love. It's so fucked up!
I was scared Harry. I was scared of them. I was scared of what you would think of me. I was afraid you would kick me to the curb and hate me forever. What you think of me means everything to me. I value your opinion more than anything in this entire world.
When I can home after my lunch with Zayn, you were in the kitchen preparing dinner. Football was on the television as well. This was our annual Sunday. Football and a dinner that took a few hours to cook. It was nice, I liked it
When you were done fondling in the kitchen you came into the living room and took your usual seat beside me on the couch. Your arm was on the top of the couch (like usual) and I was leaving against you with my feet on the arm rest (as usual). We didn't think much if this, but if anybody walked in (especially management) they would throw a fit! I wish people understood us Harry.
While we were eating dinner you asked me where I went today. I didn't lie to you, I told you that zayn and I went out for lunch. I told you I would have invited you, but you were asleep and I didn't want to wake you. That was also true. I'm glad you were asleep when I left, if you weren't then I would have had to lie to you. I hate lying to you.
The dinner you prepared was fantastic! you were always keen on cooking. In glad you had that talent. You have many talents, and I like to watch you do all of them. Cooking, singing, juggling, sowing (the talent I only know about.). I'm going to miss watching you do all of these once you begin to hate me and leave me.
I'm sorry about all of this mess Harry, Ill fix it. I will get us out of this catastrophe. I promise babe.
