About Last Night

Chapter 6

I stood there not knowing what to do, I was in complete disbelief. Was he really kicking me out, I walked away slowly. He began to close the door when suddenly something came over me, I put my hand on the door stopping it from shutting. I walked in as he stared at me confused "No, I'm not leaving" I turned to look at him. Crossing my arms "Why are you pissed, I literally took the chance to come here and tell you. Would someone that didn't care for you do this" he laughed 

"Someone that cares for me, really" I looked confused, what was he trying to throw at me "What are you talking about" I released my arms 

"First of all, you don't care about me, you've never cared. Second, Scarlett told me about what happened at the cafe. She said you disrespected and threatened her...I thought we were friends Cassie. I thought after five fucking years we would be friends, but I guess you're not over it." I was pissed, I really didn't know where any of this was coming from. I walked towards him pointing my finger to his chest "First of all get your shit straight before accusing me of something I never did. Go back and ask your girlfriend what really happened, which I don't even have to explain to you. Second, what are you trying to say I do care for you no matter what happened between us" He grabbed my hand and pushed it to the side, he walked angrily towards his window turning his back towards me "Cared if you would have cared you would of have let me explain myself five years ago. Instead, you made your own accusations and never talked to me again. I was hurt cassie, I loved you." His voice began to crack, I walked closer towards him but stopped when he said "Don't" I paused for a second but continued. As I reached him I placed my hand on his back. He tensed up, I knew this was wrong but I couldn't stop myself "Paul, I'm sorry. I know I messed up but I was just a child, I didn't know what I was doing. I did what I thought was right. I know I hurt you but I also hurt myself, I lost the one true thing I actually cared about" I felt him starting to relax, I leaned my forehead on his back. We stood there in silence taking in the moment when I felt him suddenly turning around. I lifted my head following his movement with my eyes. I didn't want to make eye contact with him, his ocean blue eyes still had an effect on me. But it didn't work, he lifted my head gently making eye contact with me. I felt butterflies in my stomach, he stared into my eyes for a while. I stood there admiring him, "Cassie, I know you were a child and I know all this happened in the past but the reason I can't forget about that day, is because I never stopped loving you. You have been on my mind every day, every hour, every minute, every second. I can't stop thinking about you because I still love you and I will always love you." I didn't know what to say, I placed my palm on his cheek. "I love you too. You have never stopped being on my mind, you will always have a place in my heart." He lowered his head slowly, his eyes landing on my lips. I moved slowly towards him as our lips touched. It felt like the very first time we kissed, I felt tears falling from my eyes. He stopped the kiss, placing his hand on my cheek "Are you okay?" I looked towards him, placing my eyes on his "Paul, we cant do this. You're with Scarlett, no matter what she did you are still with her. This is wrong" I grabbed his hand gently from my cheek lowering it and releasing my hand from his. "Cassie..." I turned my back exiting his room. He didn't follow, I walked down the stairs with tears flowing down my face. 

Cheryl was in the kitchen when she turned to look at me, "Cassie?" she tried to stop me but she was too late. I ran outside, walking towards my house. All I could think about was the mistake I just made. We were both doing great without each other, now we were back at square one. Why was I so stupid, I know I still loved him but I needed to put his happiness before mine. He was happy with his girlfriend, now I ruined everything. I laid on my bed thinking about the biggest mistake I did and how I was going to fix it. I got up from my bed standing right in front of my window. I looked outside staring at the view when I saw him in his front yard playing with Cody. I began to remember the day he found out his mom was pregnant with Cody, he was so excited. He came running into our house trying to find my brother, I believe he was a freshman and I was just in middle school. I could see the happiness on his face. Especially once Cody was born it was like no one could ever replace him, he treated him like his own son. I noticed I was zoned out and snapped out of it. I stared outside watching Paul and Cody who was now nine. Cody looked towards my window waving. I waved back smiling when I noticed paul staring, I turned to him slowly with a small smile. He smiled and waved, I couldn't...I turned around and closed my blinds.