Breaking Point

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I'm sorry this is going to be a short chapter, and it's going to be a rushed one at that, but I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm back.

Also, I'm sorry that I haven't replied to many comments recently, but I have read them, I promise. They really warmed my heart ♥️♥️thank you guys!!

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"Pre-chemo" Percy stated, staring blankly at the ceiling. Will exchanged uneasy looks with Jason.

"Yes, Percy. Pre-chemo." Jason reaffirmed softly.

"You'll be needing dialysis treatments and supplemental therapy," Will explained,"Toxins are starting to build up in your bloodstream from the underactive organs. The tumours have are primarily present in your kidneys, which is not good. They're not filtering your blood the way they're supposed to. Dialysis will help, and supplements will help you get as healthy as possible before you start treatment."

"Right." Percy whispered and went back into his blanket, much to Will's frustration.

"Percy." Jason whispered and tugged at the blanket, to no avail. "Stop behaving like a dam tortoise, gosh." He huffed and pulled at the blanket instead of tugging at it.

The site of Percy immediately made him soft again. "Oh, Percy." He whispered sadly, watching as tears slowly gathered in Percy's eyes. "It's going to be okay." He said.

"We don't know that." Percy muttered stubbornly, and both his friends exchanged glances again.

"Percy. You can't say things like that." Sally chastised suddenly out of nowhere, making all the three boys jump.

"They'd say we are more attentive after what we've been through, but we're clearly not." Will muttered to Jason, who nodded as they watched Sally enter the room.

"Imagine how Annabeth would feel if she hears you saying that." She said, and Percy's eyes fill with more tears.

"Oh Gods, Annabeth." Percy said to no one. "What will I tell her? How will I tell her that her fucking boyfriend is having cancer that is spreading fast than it is supposed to? She'll... She'll break. I don't think she'd be able to handle what my sorry ass decided to get." Percy whispered.

"Annabeth is a strong, independent woman, Percy. She'll stay strong and support you no matter what, you know that." Sally said reassuringly, but Percy only shook his head.

"No, mom. You don't understand. After Tartarus... Even if she doesn't show it, she is still strong, and independent, I know that. She is strong and independent and beautiful and perfect and I know that she is everything I would ever need and Gods I love her so so much, but I don't think she'd take this news in a calm way, just like how I won't be able to if I am in her position." Percy cried softly. "I know that I'd break if something like this happens to her, Fates forbid. I won't be able to handle it."

"But you'd want to know, wouldn't you?" Sally asked.

"Huh?"

"You'd want to know if something like that happens to her, it won't-" she added when she saw Percy's mouth open, "but you'd want to know, wouldn't you?"

"Yeah." Percy mumbled in a small voice, almost making the reply inaudible.

"Then don't you think that she deserves to be aware?" She asked again, and Percy remained silent. "Don't you?" She repeated.

"Yeah." Percy agreed, reluctantly. "But I won't be able to see her cry. It would hurt, mom. She deserves so much better than someone who might leave her. She deserves to be smiling, mom. Her smile is so beautiful, she should keep smiling. She shouldn't shed tears, I hate to see her cry. She shouldn't cry, not for me. Not because of me. She deserves to be happy."

"She deserves to-" Jason started, but Percy interrupted.

"She deserves to know before I go away for good." Percy cut in bitterly, and Jason winced at the brutal words.

"Guys, I will come back later, I have to do a report. You should sleep, Percy. I'll come in later, okay." Will said without meeting Percy's eyes and walked out of the room, much to the bafflement of his companions.

"I shouldn't have said that." Percy whispered, staring at the place where Will had been standing with horror. "That was so insensitive of me. He is doing everything he can to treat me and I spoke as though I am definitely going to die, and that his efforts are nothing but a waste."

Neither of the two denied it, because it was true. Will was doing everything he could.

"Just apologize later, Percy. He'd understand." Jason told soothingly, and Percy sank back into the pillow, if that was possible.

"Why do I keep fucking up?" He muttered, throwing his arm across his face, and Sally patted his hair soothingly.
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"He didn't mean it Will." Jason told Will, who was tinkering away with Paul's guitar.

"I know." Will gritted out, pausing momentarily, and Jason said nothing, looking worriedly at Will's back.

They were silent for a minute or two, but Will's voice interrupted the silence.

"But that doesn't mean that it doesn't hurt. Or that I have to be okay with it." Will muttered, giving an experimental strum to the guitar.

"Will..." Jason trailed off. He didn't know what to say.

Silence grew again, before Jason spoke again.

"You know Percy, Will. He might seem okay on the outside, while he is not so on the inside, Will." He told gently, and Will snorted.

"Stop saying my name at every ending of the sentence, it's weird." He told to distract Jason, but Jason promptly ignored the boy.

"As a leader, we are expected to lead, no matter what had happened. They need someone to look up to, someone to trust, and Percy is that person for us. His role, no matter what happens is to stay and act strong, even if he was breaking in reality. I mean, I saw him crying in Beckendorf's grave like two weeks ago. He still blames himself, you know? How long has it been since he died? A year? Two?" Jason asked.

Will said nothing, as he stared at an imaginary point in the air.

"He still carries the burden. As a leader, I am able to relate to some of his feelings. But he is his own individual, and I am me. We are different, and we have different means to cope up with things differently. While I have been able to move on from most of the things that happened to me, he has not. All we need is some time. He'll come to us, gradually."

Jason patted the younger boy's thigh consolingly and stood up to leave. "I hope you understand. Just give some time for Percy to accept what is happening. He has already been beating himself over up for Leo."

"Okay." Will whispered, and Jason smiled.
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Hey guys.🤩
So, it's me. I'm back.🤓🤫🙈 After months. I'm sorry, and I say that every time. But I really am.😸

I just needed some time for myself for motivating myself again, because apparently my mom never taught me the meaning of responsibility as a child,😁 and I have somehow managed to learn what laziness means without anybody's help.(lol)😂

But all the jokes aside, I have been going through a hard time, and I just wanted some time for myself and my family.🙂

I hope you guys understand, and thank you so much for for waiting for the update even though I know that it must be very frustrating.😚♥️♥️🤗

I love you guys.😘 Thank you for reading this, hope you enjoyed the chapter ( a short one, sorry).

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