It's complicated II Kellic

12. Does your stomach hurt?

Vic's POV:

I can't believe that Kellin would kiss someone else like that! Like it wasn't even a big deal! Of course it is a big deal to kiss another person when you're dating someone else. I've never had anything like this happen to me before and I feel like I'm going crazy since I have no idea how to handle the situation. I just don't understand why Kellin would do something like that which he must have known would hurt me when I thought that he was so happy with me. 

Does this means he wants to break things off?

I cry even harder as the thought only enters my mind, silently scolding myself for crying so hard at the same time. I'm really not a person who cries often and I have never cried over a boy before! Okay well that's cause I've never been involved with a boy before.. but I've never cried over a girl either!

I guess that it's logical that I've never cried over someone I've been romantically involved with before considering there aren't really that many. There's only one girl I think I could actually call my girlfriend, the others, well we were mostly just fooling around. The one girl who was my girlfriend, it wasn't something I cried about when we broke up.

It was as mutual as a breakup can get as we both agreed that we would be better off as friends. Though after a while we drifted apart even from being friends and now we don't really have any contact anymore.

I never wanted to think something like this would happen between Kellin and I as he has been the most amazing boyfriend ever since we started dating, hence why I've been trying so hard to be a good boyfriend as well since I sometimes feel like I really don't deserve him and now I can't help but to wonder if he feels like that too.

Maybe he just thought it was easier to go off and kiss someone else so that I would end things rather than just ending things himself. Was I never being a good boyfriend even if I thought I was being so?

Kellin is still standing outside the bedroom, knocking rather hysterically on the door. He has been doing so ever since I ran in here and locked the door behind me. I've heard him crying on the other side of the door this whole time, telling me he's sorry and begging me to let him in so we can talk about all of this, so that he can explain, but I don't really know what there is for him to explain to me.

He doesn't like me the way I thought he did, the way I like him.

I think that it's seriously starting to drive me insane how he's knocking on that damn door. I'm honestly surprised he hasn't tried to break the whole thing down yet.

Finally, his hysterical knocking stops and I can finally think clearly again without the constant banging noises that were starting to get the best of me and the bad temper I know I tend to have sometimes.

The silence that I'm so thankful over though, the silence that allowed me to try and think rationally and not just emotionally about this for a moment, doesn't last very long. Just a minute after the knocking has stopped, it starts up again and I let out a groan of frustration.

Getting up from the floor, I go over to the door and unlock it, pulling it open at the same time that I start shouting at Kellin.

"Kellin! I do not want to-" I cut myself off as I see that it isn't Kellin who's knocking on my door like a mad man this time, this time it's Lynn.

"Guess again," she says, giving me an empathic smile after the small joke that I guess was an attempt to lighten the mood.

Even if I had just been thinking about how I don't want to talk to anyone right now, seeing Lynn standing outside the door has me regretting that thought immediately and I let her into the room.