the way that he stared at my arm, the fear in his eyes when he saw the scars, how his face went pale when he saw the bandages
this just pissed me off more and more, i mean, what the hell?? since when does he care about me!?
he just stared at my arm in disbelief "...how did this happen..?? y.... you didn't do that... did you..??" he seriously looked scared or something, and it was managing to confuse me and piss me off at the same time. he's never, in all the time that i've known him, never looked scared like this before! why the hell now??
"yeah, because random people just come and attack your wrists out of the blue" i said, sarcastically "of course i did it!! what the hell? you think someone else did this to me??" i was really getting worked up now, this wasn't good, but i didn't feel like backing down, i've never stood up to Kaito before, and somewhere deep inside of me was feeling powerful because of it.
"....you......cut...." he only managed to get two words out before suddenly snapping out of the fear he felt before, and in to a more serious state. "you're such a freaking i-" he was cut off my the bell. he took one last look at me then walked over to his seat, i quickly re-bandaged my arm, shoved my blazer back on, and tried to act normal, going back to the homework i started earlier
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Kaito didn't talk to me for the rest of the day, and to be honest, i was happy with that. besides still liking him, i was still pissed off at him from this morning.
"heeeyy~!! Aikoo~!" my one friend, Fumika was coming running over to me, as i was walking out of the school. i smiled slightly as she doubled over next to me, panting "can we walk home together today? i've got something i wanna talk to you about" she asked, except, that to me it was less of a question, because, knowing her, she'd never let me go until she'd told we what she wanted to say. so i nodded obediently and started to walk again, following me, she continued talking "okay, good.. so, i heard you had a run-in with Kaito this morning?"
dammit, how did she know!? there's no way at all that she could ever know what happened!
i felt my face go pale "um.. y-yeah... i-.. i-i did..."
she suddenly looked concerned, noticing the paleness "did something happen with you two...?"
say no, say no, say no, say no
"i don't know.. maybe.." i looked down at the ground as i walked with her, making her seem even more concerned
"hey, stop for a sec-" she said, grabbing a hold of my shoulder and looking right at me, this is the most serious she's been with me in ages "what's going on? you've been acting weird lately.."
".......i'm fine, really, just trust me okay?" i asked, faking a smile, and somehow that was enough for her to be convinced that i was okay, the grinned back and then started chatting, having mer normal one-sided conversation, telling me random things that i won't end up remembering, and it went on like that until we split ways and i headed home
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~❀ Hanahaki disease ❀~
Romance! ! W A R N I N G ! ! contains: self-harm, attempts of suicide, hanahaki disease, LGBTQ+ and may use some harsh language.. if you're not okay with this type of thing, turn back now, don't just post hate in the comments. _________
