THE LONER BOY AND THE LONELY GIRL VOLUME 2

3.4-Part 2

Have you ever seen the movie 'Interstellar'?

Do you remember the confrontation scene between Mathew Mcconaughey and Matt Damon? (Massive Spoiler ahead so if you wanna skip this paragraph go ahead.) So in that scene, Matt tells Mathew about why he lied. Like the whole scene was confusing as hell. I mean his lie had led to the doom of entire humanity. Why would he take such an illogical decision? We all were confused at that time. But why am I bringing that up now, you say? I mean what has a sci-fi movie got to do anything with my situation, right? Well, you'll understand how that scene is closely related to me... as I tell you more.

I was beneath the fan in our living room. I picked up the chair and placed it in position. My hands were shaking feebly, sweat was rolling down from my forehead. I knew what I was doing was not right but I remembered Rob's word which said 'I'm probably doing a good thing for the entire school too.' and I thought, maybe I'm doing the right thing. Ending me will free everyone from the 'misery' I've become.

As these thoughts were flowing through my head. I began tying the belt across my neck and it was at this time my whole body began to shake. Breathing became a punishment. My brain became more and more distinct from me. My consciousness was being taken over by something evil. Even buckling the belt around my neck was a challenge for me. I knew all of this was happening because I was scared but I had decided that I was not going to back out. Today Leo Moore was going to be free.

As I strapped the belt around my neck, I climbed up the chair. When I was on the top of the chair, I was struck with vertigo. Everything around me started spinning. The heavy hits on my legs started showing their effect. My legs started to give up. I fell down the chair. It took me fifteen minutes, just to recollect myself. Even though I hadn't eaten anything, I felt like I could vomit out my whole stomach.

'What was I going to do?' was the only thought that was hammering my brain. I knew, 'I had to do this for everyone'. I slowly got up and gathered all the strength, left in my body. This time my heart was completely set, nothing was going to stop me. I started the process once again but this time something happened.

As I was climbing the chair for the second time, hundreds of images ran through my brain. These were images of all the people I had met in my life. These were the same people who tortured and placed me into this state. I didn't understand what was happening but I paid no attention to it and continued with what I was doing. When everything was set, and the only thing which was left was to topple the chair under my feet.

These were the final moments, time was completely frozen. All the images were still running through my brain. The final countdown began...

10...9...8

The pictures in my brain became slower and slower as if they were aligning themselves with the countdown... my heart was completely set on doing the final thing, to end all of this...

7...6...5

The images became slower and slower and they started to become more and more familiar... but my heart knew, they all are responsible for this situation...

4...3...2-

This was the end, I was finally going to be free...

1...

As soon as I hit 1 my brain showed me an image... an image which snapped something within me. An image which made me rethink my entire existence. An image which showed me that even if the entire world wants me dead, there is one person who wants me to live. An image which made me cry hysterically shouting.... "MOM"

Yep her image is why I'm still breathing. Remember, I said it last time, 'my mother is the reason why I'm even alive'...

I quickly unhooked the belt and sprang down the chair. My legs gave up again as I sat back down on the floor, my heart was beating like crazy. My breaths became deep. I quickly ran to the kitchen and got a bottle of water from the fridge and chugged half of it down. I poured the remainder of the water on my head.