Once you told me that I was not good enough
I think you've forgotten, but I have not
Once you said you wished I was a better person
I don't know if you meant it but it meant something to me
I tried to tell you I'm trying
But I don't think you understood
Once you couldn't meet my eyes you were so ashamed of me
I don't think you still feel that way but I carry that with me
Forgotten to you or deemed not important
When you ask what's wrong these are the things that I think
I am not good enough
I am not better
I am shameful
I'm guilty
I don't love who I am and I don't know if you do either
But I can't tell you these things
I can't tell you these things because it's my fault if I let yesterday upset my today
It's my fault if I let you upset my day
It's my fault
So when you ask what's wrong it's much easier to say that I just have a headache
My stomach hurts
I'm tired
I think I'm just sick
But the truth is my heart hurts
My heart hurts and it's my fault
