Twice

Chapter 17

When we got home, I didn't really talk to anyone, I didn't want to, I told everyone to not bother me for a while because I wanted to be alone and I just stayed in my bedroom for hours and hours just Laying there, who said love would be so complicated I thought to my self.

My mother walked into my room, -I know you want to be alone but you need to eat so I brought some food and I'll leave it by here and

I'll leave you alone but I'm only downstairs if you want a chat she says and walks out of my room.

I sigh and hit my head repetitively on my pillow, -I set it free can't it come back now! I shouted and sighed.

I ate some food but I was more upset than ever, I started to think and think and I just couldn't cope, I needed to do something which made me happy before I met german, which was singing.

I'll just focus on my career and do what I love, I decided I would train to be a singing teacher and maybe in a few years time I become one and you never know, move on like german wants but right now I think it's almost impossible.

I love him, with every single bone in my body, every single cell and for every single heart beat I have, I'll still love him. Even know I'm a little angry that he didnt want to at least try but I couldn't stay mad at him, he saved my life, he protected me, he loved me and the love we had couldn't never be forgotten even if I did move on.