💛i miss u❤️ (benjey)

madrid

i didn't sleep last night, i cried... a lot. i pondered the things that had happened yesterday. jorge is moving on. i expected him to but it was so soon. i couldn't let him. could i go back? surely not. unless?
it was that moment when i remembered i kissed addy. FUCK. i kissed addy. my only friends were addy and cayman and i've fucked up their relationship.
i have to drag myself to school but all i wanna do is see my boy.

i sighed. today was gonna be one of the longest days of my life.

i got to school and not much was happening. it was just me and about a thousand other people in the same plastic blazers and pristine black shoes. i spotted addy's raven hair. i went up to her and tapped her shoulder. she quickly handed me a note before running off.

cayman's friend got a picture of our kiss. i suggest you run. i'm so sorry
-addy xo

"THERE HE IS, THE MAN OF THE HOUR" cayman announced as he spotted me. he pulled me close and scratched his knuckles on my head, trapping my neck in his arm.
"so what was it like kissing my girlfriend, did you fuck her afterwards too?" he asked getting more violent.

i caught addys eye in the crowd of people that had formed around us. her emerald eyes stared back at me.
"run" she mouthed.

"i'm not doing this, not now" i said before quickly ducking under caymans arm before walking off.
"GET BACK HERE" he yelled as he started running towards me. i started to sprint with him steps behind me. i ducked into small spots and hid behind doors until i got off the school grounds without him knowing where i was.

i was shaking. my lungs felt like they were going to explode with the amount of air i was inhaling and exhaling. i was sweating like hell. i ripped my tie and blazer off and threw them
in the nearest bin before walking home.

thats when i decided. i'm going home.
i don't care if i can't stay with my parents, i can pay rent with jorge and get a job. i could try and stay in hotels if i got the money or anything. anything was better than this.

i thought i'd write another letter to him, i might give him the letters when i him.

baby it's happening. i'm coming home to you at last. i know it hasn't been that long, only a few months but that's long enough for me to know that living on the streets is better than being without you. i can't wait to see you, bubba.
all my love.
-benji

  when i got home and greeted my grandparents i told them the news of my leaving. i told them how much i loved them and appreciated them looking after me. they assumed i'd fixed it up with my parents so i went with that and packed my bags.

i thought i could get jorge a gift at the gift and card shop near the park. there were many shops there so i knew i could find something. as i opened the gate and started to cross the park, once again i saw addy.

"you really like that swing huh" i said.
she looked up at me, shocked.
"oh my god, benji! you're ok" she exclaimed.
"yes but i have some news"
i sat down on the swing next to her.

"i'm..." i paused.
"i'm moving back to madrid"
she thought about what i said for a second and i explained further.
"school is out for a week so i have time to settle in. i can't live any longer without jorge and cayman wants me dead" i smiled.

"i support it, it's the right decision. i'll miss you, benji" she stood up and i followed.
"i'll miss you too, addy. stay in touch" i said before hugging her tightly.

after leaving the park with tears in my eyes i went to the gift shop and found a huge teddy bear. i knew it was impractical but that didn't mean i could resist buying it.

and so i walked back home with the huge, fluffy teddy bear, packed my bags and booked my tickets.

see you soon, my love.

//literally slap me ive been so bad at updating. i promise i'll make it up to you!//