I ask myself why do I put up?
Why do I let words hurt?
Why do I whine like a pup?
I take myself off alert.
I want the ones I love to smile
I want them to laugh and hug
While my heart is utterly defiled
And feel the need to unplug.
And even with harsh words
I just look and nod
Even inside is trapped birds
You know my face is fraud.
But you ignore it either way
When I want to matter to you
You find other things to say
And self esteem is askew.
One day is "I love you"
The next is "I don't care"
Or that's how it comes through.
And to me it isn't really fair.
I want to smile and mean it
I want you to cry if I disappear
But I guess even if I slit
You'll never hold me dear.
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She Was
Poetry2nd Collection in the She series. A collection of poems following similar themes to collection of poems titled "She Says". These poems will follow a theme more closely following dealing with past traumas, inner strength, forgiveness, and being who...
