Dazed Energy

chapter 7

My POV

I went outside and walked to the park, it was nice, and the weather was nice. I sat on the bench, there was no one around. I pulled out my cigarettes and lighter and started smoking. I don't smoke much I actually hate it, but it calms me down. I stared into space and began to get sad. No one has ever told me I was beautiful before, I was happy he told me that but he isn't alive, he is dead, I can't fall in love with him. I hate my life, I hate seeing spirits I hate it. It makes my life more complicated than it already is.

"I remember when I used to come out here "Kian said.

I looked up and smiled.

"Haven't seen you in a while where have you been?" I asked.

"Been caught up in school that's all, but why are you smoking are you stressed? "He said.

"ya a lot" I muttered.

Kian is my neighbor, we used to go to middle school together, were really good friendships basically my best friend .I haven't seen him in a while because we go to different schools. I go to a public school he goes to some other high school because he got kicked out of mine for fighting. I missed him. I haven't had the chance to talk to him lately or hang out with him.

"Can I come over later?! We def. need to catch up on each other cause I freakin missed you!" he smiled while messing with my hair.

"Yes! Def-"I trailed off.

I had forgotten Chris is there well at least for me and my mom to see only. But I need to keep my mind off him, after all he is just another spirit.

"So is that a ya or a naw?" Kian asked while making a funny face.

"Ya "I laughed.

We walked back to my house and went inside.

"Kiannnnnnnn!! Where have you been I haven't seen you in forever!" my mom shouted while hugging him.

Kian knows about my mom and me, like how we can see things and all that stuff.

"How's mom?" Kian asked my mom.

"She's good! She came by the other day and we talked about how you and Karina used to play hid n seek all the time when you were little "she smiled.

Kian smiled and then frowned.

"Tell her I miss her "he spoke.

"I will" my mom said with a frown then rubbed his back.

Kian's mom died of cancer, she died about 4 years ago.

We walked upstairs to my room but I didn't make it all the way up the stairs because I was lazy. Kian, already almost to room, turns around and laughs.

"Seriously?!" he chuckled.

"Hey, this is a workout ok!" I screamed

He laughed then came over to the stairs and put me on his back and ran to my room .when we go to my room he was already assembling the Xbox for me and him to play mortal kombat.

"I'm going to change, these pants aren't comfortable" I said.

I when into my walk in closet and closed the door, but just as I was looking for some pajama pants I looked up and it was Chris.

"hey" he softly spoke.

"um id appreciate it if you didn't sorta stalk me " I whispered with a smile.

"who's that?"

"hes my bestfriend why?" I said irritated while looking for pajama pants.

He nodded his head but did not say a word .he was staring at the ground as I was changing . I walked out the closet and sat on the bed sighing.

"whats wrong" kian noticed.

Kian notices everything he practically knows me from the palm of his hand.

I sighed again and whispered

"everything."