Dazed Energy

chapter 9

AMANDAS POV:

I cant believe what ive done to him, he hasn't ate or made anymore music and I hate that I was the cause of all this. Hes just laying there in his hoodie silently crying to himself. His eyes were swollen h,tissues all over the place , and an empty bottle of vodka on the floor. What have I done to him I keep asking myself. Just then I felt someone walk through me . It was gilinsky. He walked over to him and said

"Johnson ,you cant keep doing this to yourself,she wouldn't want this."

Then a very hesitated soft achy voice ,he said.

"she was everything to me ,she was there for me , she was all I ever wanted and needed and shes gone jack,shes gone , and id never thought id have to end up in this situation". he cried.

Gilinsky patted him on the back as Johnson cried.

Johnson tucked him self in and layed on the bed sobbing and screaming "why"

Matt must've heard because he barged in and ran up to him and hugged him and cried with him saying

"I cant believe shes gone too, but we need to pull are selves together because shes-" Matt stuttered then looked blank .

'excuse me" he said while running out.

I followed him and saw him lock himself in the bathroom staring at him self in the mirror, then started bursting into tears.

I walk over to Johnson and kiss him on his forehead.

I ran back to chris and hugged him tightly saying it Was my fault .

He grabbed onto me and whispered in my ear

"you need to give him closure Amanda."

Hes right I need to send him a message somehow ,I will tell him when he sleeps by himself tonight next to empty sheets that left my scent .

Why did this happen ?

I looked back at Johnson and let out one last faintly cry .

"I love you."

Just then,Johnson shot his face straight up and smiled.

He said with short of breath "Amanda?"