Forbidden Love (A Nash Grier Lovestory)

chapter 7

(if i dont put a pov its automatticly alexa ok i just wanted to point that out)

after mine and Nashs hug fest we then walked back into shanws room

nash, cam and the other boys were filimg a Q&A which turned into smack cam

i just stayed on the bed making sure i dont get into the video

while i was on the bed i thought about what that fan had said about me earlier at the airport

was it true?

i thought deeply about that

afterwards i then on twitter and decided to clear my mind

bad mistake

all i saw was hate beyond hate beyond hate

(making up these usernames)

@Quuen_grier: Alexa is a total whore she needs to back the fuck away lol little slut @alexadallas

@poopforcaniff: i swear to fucking god if that little ugly whore @alexadallas dates taylor i will legit fucking kill her

@simplyespinosa: does she not knowthat we see her cuts? pathetic @alexadallas

@sexdallas: @alexadallas is ugly,fat , worthless, she has no friends, and no one likes her. she needs to honestly stop trying i think no one would give two shits if she killed herself

i felt my heart drop as tears well up in my eyes as i read more

@idkgilinsky: that little slut @alexadallas better stay away from gilinsky

@thinkingofnash: my honest opinion about @alexadallas. i honestly think no one would be upset if she died i think everyone would be happy. she dosent understand that no one likes her. she thinks everywhere is obssesed with her meanwhile no one can give too shits about her. shes worthless, shes beyond hideous, shes a slut like she dresses like one everyday, shes so fat she eats so much shes bigger than a hippo, she cuts herself for attetion, and she is a fucking retart. i used to have repsect for her but i dont anymore. she would be better off dead. alexa if your reading this i want you to know that i hate you so fucking much and i wouldnt care if youd die right now. i would be so happy if you did tbh. get away from my boys and stop acting like your the shit cause your not. goodbye i hope you have terrible life you ugly ass fat bitch. byee cunt ( ps if you agree with me fav this )

i looked under it, it had over 50,00 favorites

thats when i wanted to bawl

but im in front of the guys i cant

i had to leave

"hey guys i feel a bit and dont feel good im going to go back to my room" i said trying to hide the fact that i wanted to cry

"ok be careful i love you" cam said as he gave me a hug

i nodded and i felt tears well up in my eyes

i didnt want them to know im crying so i let out a fake yawn so it looked like i have the tears from being tired

i gave everything a hug goodnight and a gave nash a tighter hug

he whisped something in my ear that i didnt get but i smiled at him

fake ovbiously

i then left shawns room and went to mine.

wheni got to our room i looked around and started bawling. everything i hsve kept inside finally came out

all i could do was sob and sob and sob

i then took my phone and threw it across the room

i let out a frusterated sigh

i starting sobbing agin

i then got up stil crying and ran to my suitcase and took out my blade and ran into the bathroom i looked into the mirror and started pulling my hair and started sobbing

i took the blade and put it up to my wrist

and i just kept slicing my wrists and didnt care who would see

all up my arm

once my left arm was covered in cuts i dropped the blade on the counter and started crying again

i then washed my arm and while washing my arm i heard the door open and i heard nashs voice

'fuck' i said to myself

i then heard my name and i started to panick because my cuts

"alexa" nash kept repeatting

he then saw me

and i saw tears in his eyes

"why" is all he could say

before he could come in here i quickly ran to the door whilebhe also ran to it and i shut it and locked it so he cant get in

i heard banging on the door i just stayed in the bathroom crying and having a panick attack

i then heard nash scream for me

i was numb

i then heard nash screm for taylor and cam and told them what happened

then i heard cam nash and taylor banging on the door screaming "ALEXA" over and over again