Forbidden Love (A Nash Grier Lovestory)

chapter 14

When we got to the arena we all got ready for all the boys to go on stage

I didn't wanna go on stage so I just sat on a couch in the back room eating pizza and traveled threw the world of twitter

I felt a tap on my shoulder so I turned around and saw this beyond gorgeous girl with nice long straight blonde hair with a pink crop top and high waisted shorts and black vans with a gray cart again on

"Hi are you Alexa?" The blonde asked

I nodded

"Why are you here?" She asked rudely

I was a little taken back. Like tf is up with this girl

"Cameron's my brother. Who are you?" I asked.

"Monica but that don't concern you" Monica replied back

"Ok so what's up" I asked

"Listen up bitch your such a fucking whore. I legit don't know why your mom didn't you up for adoption. And why the fuck are you eating that pizza. Your fat enough. All that makeup your wearing ain't makeup you look any prettier because your ugly as fuck. And don't you dare say anything about this to the boys because I swear to fucking god if you make me look bad. I will ruin you that's not a threat that's a promise" Monica said looking at me

I felt tears in my eyes

'Why does everyone here hate me so much?' I wondered to myself

"Look I have a question. I'm not being rude anything I'm just asking because obviously no one wants me here. Do you have pills in your purse" I asked her very weakly

Her faced turned pale

"No no no. I'm so sorry. Now you want to kill your self because of me and omg I didn't mea-" she said panicking

"No it's not because of you I forgive you, it's just I don't like living and I can't take any of the hate anymore it's all to much for me to handle. I have done nothing wrong and everyone hates me telling me to die a-and it is-isn't fair to me" i sobbed

i wiped my tears and smiled weakly

"im sorry" i chuckled while tears still spilled down my face

she just looked down and walked away

i got up and walked over to cam

"im going back to my room" i said to him looking down so he wouldnt see i was crying

he picked up my head and saw me crying

"lex whats wrong" he said softly

"i saw a really sad picture on twitter" i lied to him

he laughed and hugged me

"its ok no need to cry" he said ruffling my hair

you are probably wondering why i didnt tell cam.

i didnt tell him because i didnt want him to know that a fan said that.

i started thinking deeply about everything she said

i usually see hate online but no one ever said it to me in person

i just need to take a nap

"alright im going to take a nap upstairs by cam" i said while hugging him tightly.

"love you" he said and kissed my forehead

"love you more" i said into his chest

i let go and went into the elevator to the 4 floor

( i dont remember if i said a floor so sorry if it isnt the 4)

when i reached my room i took out m key walked in and flopped on my bed

and went on twitter and i saw a trending hashtag #WeHateAlexaDallas

i looked threw the hashtag all i saw was hate.

i sighed and went into the bathroom

and looked into the mirror

maybe i really am ugly

i turned to see my side

and maybe i am fat

i vowed down after that to stop eating

i bent down and opened the 5 cabinet where my blades were, praying cam didnt flush them

fuck he flushed them. there no were to be found

i had an idea though

i left a note for the boys:

went to the souvenir shop be back later

- to lazy to write about the souvenir shop-

i bought one of the packet things that have the notebook pencils pens pencil case and pencil sharpener (idk what those are called so hopefully you know what im talking about)

i un screwed the pencil sharpener and took the now blades out and rolled down my sleeves and made myself 5 nee fresh cuts

one for being ugly...

one for being fat...

one for being worthless...

one for being a whore....

and one for being alive

i dropped the blade and mentally cursed under my breath over these new fresh cuts

i put my arm under the sink to wash the cuts.

i sighed and took off all my clothes and went into the shower

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once i finished my nice shower i got out and put a towel over my head to help my hair not be as wet and changed into a black cameron dallas hoodie and some white pink sweat pants

i took out my blow dryer and dried my hair so it wasnt wet anymore.

i put my hair in a braid to keep it out if my face

i didnt need to take my makeup off because i washed it off in the shower

i looked down and i saw my blades on the sink still

i sighed and put them in the 2 cabinet with all my makeup because no boys go in a makeup draw

i walked out and saw nash cameron and taylor looking at me. i smiled brightly and sat on cam and mines bed.

"do you guys wanna watch a movie?" cam asked

i nodded.

we all sat on mine and cams bed

the sitting order was cam me nash and then taylor

i cuddled into nash and put my head on his he cuddled back

i felt safe

i looked at his face while he was watching the movie

i started taking in all his features

hes so beautiful

his hair, his eyes, his smile

he is just so beautiful

i realized that my feelings for nash were real and i was kinda scared because no one would fall for little alexa dallas

i kissed his check and i saw him smile

i started drifting to sleep in his arms when i heard "i love you lex" and i blacked out