Sunglasses on, walking alongside the shore
I watched the sun set and listened to the waves roar
Music on, cellphone in my hand,
I walked and walked, waiting for the day to come to an end
Looking straight ahead but not seeing a single thing
I replayed in my head the memories, forgetting the pain it would bring
And as always you were the only thing on my mind
And I silently wished you to be here by my side
I have always known that the world worked in a mysterious way
And that destiny and fate would always contradict me, no matter how much I prayed
And I would never have expected to see you today
Walking and walking but still so far away
I knew it was you, despite the hundreds of miles separating us
I was sure it was you, from your shadow and your outline and the way you moved
My heart, at the sight of you, stopped for a fraction of second
Then went on beating and drumming so fast and so hard I couldn't breathe anymore
Something inside me broke and shattered
And who knew seeing you would hurt so bad and so much matter?
A part of me wanted desperately to let go of everything and run to you
But another part of me desperately wanted to hide and disappear and get away from you
But then, before I even decided what to do
You kept walking and turned away from where I stood
You didn't see me and even if you would have
You wouldn't have given me a second thought, you wouldn't have talked to me, would you have?
Your shadow was gone, and you were gone, and my heart went with you
And even if we had crossed paths, I would be nothing but a stranger to you
You dissipated with the bright light of the summer sun
And I realized I would just have to walk and walk and keep going on
An hour went by, and I was still there
Coming back and forth, hoping to catch your eye anywhere
Another hour went by, and I never left the place
And even with my buzzing mind, I still wanted to believe I would look up and see your face
It got late and the sun decided to go to sleep
Heartbroken, and tears in my eyes, I knew it was time to leave
With a last glance at the now silent waves and the peaceful water
I wished I could just drown and let go of the passing hour
Hopeless and lifeless, I took the way back to the car
Wanting to escape from this world and to go somewhere so so far
But somehow, for no absolute reason, I looked back and saw
You and your friends walking, happy and smiling, voices so low
Out of nowhere, you were suddenly just behind me
But without doubt, you didn't seem to notice or recognize me
And seeing you for the second time, stabbed me again in the heart
And without thinking, I took off running, without looking back.
A.H
