Washed Up

Part 9- Newer Balances

All day- all i could think about was him.
I kept thinking about what we did last night- and then i thought about how we first met.. how he yelled at me because he thought i was committing suicide. And then we talked for hours. I felt as if i'd knew him my entire life. I felt connected to him, like our energies intertwined and shared a bond.. and now? He can't even look at me. What did i do....
"Sav."
I look up and Naya is staring at me with one eyebrow raised.
"You've been out of it all day." She says to turn around and get her lipgloss out of her bag.
"I know.. I just.. I.."
"You what?" She says, applying the thickn glittery layer onto her lips, then popping them and rubbing them together and screw it back into her sleek hexagonal tube that has the words "FENTY" written on it.
"I'm just tired.." I say, drawing circles with my fork out of yogurt.
"Girl, i know damn well you ain't just 'tired'." She says, raising both eyebrows this time.
"Well... I had this close friend. guy friend."
"Ooooo" She makes a face with a smirk.
"Well- I byaccidentally hooked up with him when i was drunk .. now he can't even talk to me."
"Oh. Shit."
"Yeah. I'm kinda pissed." I say, also being grateful in the back of my mind. This is the first female-friend i've made in a long time, and we also connect. She's supportive as HELL.
"Don't sweat it out! Time'll fix it. Trust me." She says, with a whimpery face.
"I love you" i say, hugging her.
".. i love you too..!" She says, tightly squeezing me. When the bell rings we head back to class and the day continues.

Through most of my classes, i continue daydreaming. Thinking. Fantasizing. The bell finally rings and i get a text from Steven.
"Meet at the back of school" and i quickly head down there , but someone grabs my arm. I turn around, It's Naya.
"Where you heading to?"
"I'm meeting some friends..!" i say, pointing to the doors.
"Oh. Ok. See ya!" She winks and walks off. I rush and open the doors and see everybody standing there.
"Sav!" Dean says, walking toward me.
"Oh. Hey" i say. I spot Liam. He's not looking anywhere in my direction... for some reason my heart starts pounding.
"We were thinking of going to the Hukkah spot downtown. You down?" He says, and just as i am about to agree, I spot Liam looking uncomfortable.
"I- nah. I'll sit this one out. I got a lot to catch up one.."
"You sure? We'll only be there 'till round 6 or 7" Dean says, now holding my elbow close to me.
"I-I'm fine. I gotta go." I say, pulling away. As i walk through the hallway by the doors i hear someone say,
"Didn't something happen between you and Sav yesterday?" and i walked too far to hear the answer.