Addicted To Love

Chapter 5

Chapter 5

We pull up to the clubhouse and Koz helps me get my bags out as a guy in a prospect kutte runs up. Koz hands him my bags and tells him "Take them to my dorm." The guy nods and does as he's asked. We walk inside and up to the bar. "What can I get you Koz?" the girl behind the bar asks. "Beer and one for my girl." he tells her and she nods. "Welcome doll." she says as she sits a beer in front of both of us. He sits on the barstool and pulls me back between his legs. Putting his hands on my hips, my hands go to his chest and I look at my hands. Tilting my chin up he says "Talk to me baby girl." I move closer and lay my head on his shoulder and his arms wrap around me. Kissing my temple, he whispers "I got you baby girl. I won't let you go." and he holds me even closer.

"Are you okay baby girl?" he asks and I shake my head no. He stands up and laces his fingers with mine before leading me to the dorm we will be staying in. He closes the door and sits on the bed and pulls me to sit next to him, still holding my hand. "Talk to me Shayne." he says. I pull my hand from his and say "I don't know what I'm doing here Herm." I tell him. "What do you think you're doing here?" he asks. "I know I'm here so you can keep me safe, but Herm, why? Why do you care?" I ask. I stand from the bed and say "I'm an addict who's only good for one thing and you heard Kris. They had to drug me to have fun. You don't want that Herm." I tell him. I am pacing back and forth. I stop and look at my bags and he stands. He walks over to me and cups my face. "Baby girl, listen to me. I want this. I want you. They hurt you and I don't think there's a fucking thing wrong with you." he tells me. "Herm, I have to go. You have to let me go." I tell him. Kissing me softly he asks "Do you want to be with me?" I shake my head no and he says "Bull shit. Look me in the eyes and tell me you don't want to be with me." I don't look at him and don't say anything. "Do you want to be with me baby girl? It's a simple question." he says softly. "Yes." I whisper. Kissing my lips softly he says "Then you're mine. You're my girl and I'm yours." he tells me. I finally look at him and he says "You belong with me." I nod my head and he kisses me softly and I let him deepen the kiss.

We finally walk out ot the main room and he starts introducing me to some of his other brothers. "Welcome to the family little one." Donut tells me. "Thank you." I say softly. I look at Herm and he sees how nervous I am. Leading me over to where Lee was sitting, we sit at the table with him and a woman. "Baby girl, this is Lee's Old Lady Kelly. Kelly, this is my girlfriend Shayne." he introduces us. "Welcome Shayne. If you need anything, let me know." she says and I say "Thanks Kelly." I start looking around and seeing all of these women that are thinner than me and prettier than me and barely wearing any clothes. "Don't worry about them. They're sweetbutts. They give you any problems, you tell me." he tells me and I just nod.

A little later, we head to the dorm to sleep and I say "I'm gonna shower." but still won't look him in the eye. I get my clothes and head into the bathroom and he grabs my hand and stops me. I stop but don't look at him. He tilts my chin up and kisses me softly and says "I'll be right here." I nod and head inside. I get into the shower and start to sob. Soon enough he'll see what Kris did. I wish he would just let me leave but I know that won't happen.

I get out of the shower and am laying in bed. I lay on one side with my back to him and he lays behind me with his arm around me. I hear his breathing even out telling me he's sleeping but I can't. The more I think about things the more I want to use. I can't get to sleep so I slip out of bed and into the main room. Walking outside in my leggings and my long sleeve shirt, I walk over to one of the picnic tables and sit on top. I am lost in my thoughts when someone sits down next to me. "You okay?" Lee asks. "I don't know." I tell him. "It's an adjustment but little one, we won't let anyone hurt you again." he tells me. "I know but I just feel bad being here." I tell him. He looks at me confused and I say "I appreciate everything you guys are doing for me and I want to be with Herm but he deserves better than what I can give him." I tell him. "Little one, let me tell you something." Lee says. "Before he brought you here, when you would call and check in, he would sit here an look at his phone after you two talked and you could see it on his face that he wanted to call you back. He'd spend a lot of time at the bar, just looking at his beer bottle, lost in his thoughts, thinking about you." he tells me. "He shouldn't have. I'm not worth it." I tell him before getting off the table and walking back inside. I walk to the kitchen and get a cup of coffee and sit on one of the couches.

A little later, I am still sitting there, looking into my cup of cold coffee when Herm kneels in front of me. "You okay baby girl?" he asks. I don't look up but say "Couldn't sleep. Didn't want to wake you." Tilting my chin up to look at him, he says "Come on. Let's go to bed." he tells me. I nod and one of the sweetbutts takes the cup from me and he leads me to the dorm. We walk in and he closes and locks the door. Pulling me to the bed, we get into bed and he pulls me close to snuggle into his chest. Wrapping his arms around me and tilts my chin up again and kisses me softly before saying "Baby girl, please believe me. I want this. I want you." he tells me. I snuggle closer and we both just lay there.