Memoirs of "abnormality" (boyxboy)

Chapter 2

Chapter two

**Jacob's POV**

I rolled over in my bed and sighed as I brought my arms behind my head. I missed Zeke. I felt bad for the way things were between us. But past experience's has told me to hold back.

He will hurt you..you know that,

I heard the same old voice in my head. Sigh. I hated it, it was a demon that had lived in my head for as long as I can remember.

'Go away' I told it. 'I have no time for you'

I had heard many people talk about their demons, stories and all that. Mine doesn't tell me to cut myself or destroy myself, it just puts me down. 

I don't know why you don't listen to me...I am only trying to stop bad things from happening..

'You know what? You are a bad thing, so I don't know why you're trying to save me from bad things when you're still here!!'

I tried my hardest to shut him out and for once, it worked. I knew he would be back though.

I tried to ignore thoughts of Zeke and got up to have a shower. My mum is still out, like always.

After my shower, I snuck into my mum's room being careful not to move anything in case she noticed. Some how, if something was out of place, she would know and would come bursting into my room, yelling at me and grounding me. The only thing she didn't notice that was gone was her smokes. She always forgot how much she smoked.  I didn't want to tell Zeke of the hardships I faced when he wasn't around. He would probably try to help and I don't need that.

Slowly and carefully, I grabbed her currently opened pack ,which was half full, from the drawer and grabbed a cigarette. Then with great care, I walked out of her room and went outside,checking that Zeke couldn't see me before lighting up the "ciggy".

It felt so good to smoke, I felt the tight grip of my demon weaken as I puffed in the damaging smoke. Maybe this was a good thing; that smoking could kill. I wouldn't be hurting Zeke anymore if I died but then again, I knew he would be crushed and I couldn't leave him like that. However, I was in no state to give up smoking anytime soon.

After I finished my cigarette, I put it out in Mum's ash tray and went to brush my teeth before changing into my gym clothes and walking to the closest gym to the apartment building, three blocks away.

My gym work didn't seem to be natural today; I was too distracted.

I decided to have a break and fill up my water bottle as well as check my phone.

1 message from mum. 1 message from Zeke.

Weird. He doesn't usually text me because of the risks.

I opened the message from mum first.

'Hey darling. Won't be back for four more days. Look after yourself. No guests over or there'll be fucking trouble.'

Great. More days without the scrag.

Next, I opened Zeke's text. My heart beat fast and I gulped, fearing what it said.

Hey Jacob. Sorry to message you but I felt like I needed to.
I really really like you and I'm sorry if it makes things awkward but I just wanted to let you know.

I smiled at his text and my heart continued to beat fast.

I texted him back.

I love you too.

*A/N*

Cliff hanger woooop!!!

Well, its kinda a cliff hanger.

Shortish chappie I know but I felt like it fit into the story. Hope you guys like it.

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