Memoirs of "abnormality" (boyxboy)

Chapter 3

Chapter 3

***Zeke's POV***

He said he loved me.

My heart raced and I couldn't stop smiling. I was probably looking like an idiot right now.

"What are you smiling about?" My older brother, who doubled up as my best friend, asked as he played Xbox.

"Oh nothing Max." I smiled sweetly at him.

"Come on bro, I know you. You don't smile for nothing." He paused the game and looked at me with an eyebrow raised.

"Well uhhh...." I tried to think quick. "My favourite band brought out a new song." I chuckled weakly.

"Show me it then." He stood up from the floor and sat beside me on the couch as I quickly switched over to YouTube and put on the song: Drown by Bring Me The Horizon. My favourite band.

"Sounds cool." He smiled and ruffled my hair before continuing to play his game.

I told Max everything. Well everything apart from the fact that I was gay. I wasn't ready to be openly gay yet despite feeling like this for 3 years, I couldn't bring myself to say it. Each time I did, my mouth suddenly forgot how to function and it just came out as wordless splutters.

"Boys!!" We heard the familiar yelling from Mum. We knew that it's best to respond to her straight away and we quickly walked out of the room to see her.

Once again she was in the kitchen, watching some reality TV show on the medium sized television.

"Yes mum?" We both asked in sync.

"You boys need to do chores. Now." She commanded, not taking her eyes off the screen.

Without saying a word we went and did as we were told.

I grabbed the vacuum cleaner and started vacuuming the house and continuing my chores.

Finally, three hours later we finished our chores and we both flopped down on the couch in the second lounge room. Also known as our lounge room.

"She works us like we are pack horses." I sighed.

"It's discipline." Max argued. He was always trying to see positives.

"She is very harsh though..and very prime and proper. It makes me feel like I can't tell her certain things. I'm too scared to."

"You might not be able to tell her, but I'm here to talk to. You even said you trusted me enough to tell me anything and everything." He looked at me and smiled.

I sighed. I'm not too sure where this conversation was going and to be honest, I was scared of its direction. "Yeah but.."

"But?"

"Never mind."

Now it was time for Max to sigh. He knew I wouldn't explain so he left it.

I was glad.

He knew me well, he knew my behaviour and my 'secret' body language.

Max was amazing, he made me comfortable and I felt almost like myself around him.

I felt like whatever happened or whatever I told him, I would still be welcomed as his brother and that he would help me through it. But I still couldn't find it in me to tell him..

It was 11:00 by the time I crawled into my single bed. I grabbed one of my two pillows and cuddled it, wishing it could be someone. Jacob preferably.

He had never told me he was gay. I guess I just assumed. I mean he does kiss me and cuddle me so there is a reason why I think he is.

Sigh. I guess I'll just have to let the time go on and see what happens.