Choosing you [Joey. T]

The one with the baby on the bus

For days now I've been ignoring and drifting away from the group. I've been working extra shifts and I've been sleeping a lot due to how tired I've been recently. With my bump growing and all it's become heavy and harder for me to walk around much.

Today I had the day off and was planning to just spend it in my apartment again but Ross came knocking on my door with Ben telling me to go with him upstairs to Monica's. And of course i wasn't going to say no to ben. So I made my way upstairs trailing behind Ross holding ben in my arms. 

"Knock knock" Ross said as he walked in and me right after him. This felt like the first time chandler introduced me to everyone, I felt so awkward and vulnerable. Something I hadn't felt around these people since the first time I walked in through the purple door.

"Hey it's Mila !" Joey said causing chandler to turn around quickly seeing that I'm finally here again.

"Yea it's me..." I said with fake enthusiasm laced in my voice.

"So why haven't you been around lately?" Monica asked me concerned.

"Oh you know, just been busy...taking extra shifts to save up for what the baby needs and all that stuff." I explained part of the reason why I haven't been over.

"Whoa whoa you can't be taking extra shifts. I told you I'm going to buy the more expensive things, you don't need to worry about it." Chandler told me but I simply ignored him and looked down. I could feel my heart beat louder and stronger in my chest. All the things they were saying sounded like muffled voices.

We moved to the table when Monica served us all pies. But even then I just picked at my food and everything around me was muffled. That was until Ross began to panic because the pie had kiwi and he is allergic to it. Him and Monica rushed to the hospital and Joey, chandler and I were left behind to take care of ben.

"Hey Joe Can you watch ben for a second?" Chandler asked Joey and then walked up to me, grabbed my wrist and led me outside into the hallway.

"Hey what's the matter? You've been acting weird since the day we went out to celebrate Monica's promotion." Chandler said finally having worked up the courage to say something.

I finally raised my head and looked up into his blue eyes that once made me feel happiness and made every bad thing melt away but now they only bring tears and pain.

"Are you seriously asking that? Like if you don't already know what you did." I said with tears in my eyes.

"Oh my god. You heard?" He asked me surprised

"Yes of course I heard ! I can't believe you slept with another woman. Did you just get bored of me? Is it because we haven't slept together?" I asked beginning to raise my voice causing him to pull me into his apartment so that the neighbors won't hear.

"No mila I was weak. It was one time. I could never get bored with you." Chandler said with tears in his eyes as well.

"Then why did you do it? Was I not good enough for you?" I sobbed as I looked at him.

"You were everything I have ever asked for! You are everything I been asking for. You are the love of my life." Chandler said softly trying to pull me closer to him.

"If you loved me, you wouldn't have done it." I said softly as the sobs escaped my mouth.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Mila please forgive me." Chandler begged while sobbing into my hands that he was holding.

"Chandler I think this is it." I said softly because even I didn't want to hear it.

"No, no, no, Mila please no. I love you. You are having my little girl. I love you so much I cannot lose you." He sobbed and fell to his knees. I helped him up and lead him to the couch.

It broke my heart seeing him like this more than it did when he find me he cheated.

"I don't want this to be the end chandler but how can I be with someone who is able to cheat? That day.. is that why you were late?" I asked after it all began to connect.

"You showed up after you slept with her and tried to grab my hand. You weren't even going to tell me. How can i be with you knowing that you will hurt me and not even care." I sobbed

"I do care! I care so much ! It destroyed me, I regretted it the moment it happened. I just want to spend my life with you and our little girl. I don't want you guys to leave me. I'm so sorry." Chandler said as he turned around and began to kiss my belly and then kiss my tear stained cheeks.

"I'm sorry. I have to go." And with that I walked out of his apartment and rushed down to mine and cried even more until i was left completely drained.